Went to court yesterday and mediation was ordered. My son’s father still has not admitted his drug problem for what it is. He is scheduled to see our son tonight, but last night he threatened to call social services on me again if I do not let him see his son when he wants to. He doesnt understand I have primary physical custody and visitation is only if we mutually agree upon it. I am only letting him see our son because I know my son loves his father and wants to see him. But his father is not who is use to be and I hate exposing him to what he has become. I am terrified that due to his high risk behavior and being seen on a work vehicle in very bad parts of town that our son would potentially get caught in the cross fires of drug dealers or such. I know some of my fears are extreme but we read about it everyday. Everytime he threatens me, I just get nauseated. I am remaining as strong as I can, but it is taking its toll. I also have a 14 yr. old daughter and in the midst of taking a clinical manager role in a large pediatric office, and I am in school online for my BA in psychology. My stress level is more than I ever thought I could handle. I am holding in so much anger, saddness, and pain just for the sake of my kids and sanity. Dear God, I know things could be much worse, but this is the hardest and longest stress I have ever had to deal with. I am constantly sick to my stomach. I have lost weight from not being able to eat and laughter seems so few and far between. I am trying to stabilize my mentality to remain as positive as I can but sometimes I fail at that and just break down. My family and friends have been supportive and I am thankful for that. And I also very appreciative and thankful for all of you praying for people like me out there. In return I pray for your intentions as well. Thank you again for all the support.
Thank you for the update. I know how scary these situations can be. You may want to seek counseling or help from a psychologist. That greatly benefited me when I was going through something similar.
Mother Mary, St. Anne, St. Joseph, please intercede on behalf of adbrides. Please provide comfort and healing for her spirit so that she can endure these trials and get the necessary rest she needs. Please ask our Lord to ensure she has people in her life that can provide her support and to guide the mediator to bring this situation to resolution. Please ask the Lord send angels to watch over her son and keep him safe from all harm when he is with his father. Please ask the Lord to pour out his grace on this situation and to heal the children’s father of his wounds and other addictions so that he can learn to be a good father for his child. Amen.
Hail Mary, full of grace.
Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God,
Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
St. Michael the archangel, defend us in battle.
Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him we humbly pray.
And do thou oh Prince of the heavenly host.
By the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all evil spirits who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.
Amen