I stopped practicing the faith for a little over a year. I was examining the Russian Orthodox, but couldn’t get over the petrine role laid out in the dialogue at the end of the gospel of John.
I’d been to the byzantine parish a few times with Dad, who is a Roman Rite Deacon. We (Dad and I) were going to a local iconography show at an art gallery, and ran into the Byzantine Pastor and his head cantor. I started going. I was on-and-off again there, and learning to cantor, for much of the following 15 years. I then moved out to Eagle River, and returned to Roman praxis. I was missing something, and wasn’t certain what. I mean, most of the canon was being sung, very few liturgical abuses*, a doctoral candidate theologian as pastor…
We stopped in for Vigil at the St. Nick’s. My wife noticed how immediately my disposition was changed that week.
I felt at home again.
Beyond that, tho’, is the thing I was missing: Theology in your face in the DLs of Sts John and Basil. The propers provide a strong and powerful sense of Byzantine Theology, right there, in your face, every week.
The Latin propers outside the mass (specifically for hours) do have most of the theologizing, but the propers tend to be less theology, and less in depth.
I’d served the DLM as a youth, as well as the OF of the Roman Mass. The “Traditional” mass holds no appeal for me, and is even less useful for instructing the faithful than the OF, as the propers are in Latin…
Further, the symbolism in the Roman Rite liturgies just never resonated with me. The Byzantine does.
In any case, I found what I was seeking in the Ruthenian Church. Theology in my face, a beautiful and vernacular liturgy. The symbolism of the cycle of tones and the cycle of the liturgical year. The use of Iconography.
It all just clicks for me.