I guess you are a nurse?
I will pray for you and for her.
I am a hospice volunteer, who has been with more than 200 patients as they passed into the hands of Christ. For me, it doesn’t get easier, only different. Some people pass away peacefully, some fight it with all their might. Some suffer, some do not. Helping them confers a certain grace that you can’t help but be thankful for. I think you will feel that grace after the initial feelings wear off.
I’m sorry you’re feeling so bad right now. It will get better, and you will come to see the grace in helping people die when it is their time, when God calls them. I will pray that you feel that grace soon.
God bless and thank you for your devotion to the sick and hurting.
Dear God, please help Kendra to feel the grace in helping the dying to cross from this life into eternity. Give her peace and serenity in the knowledge that she is truly an instrument of your peace and love. Please help Kendra’s patient to enter heaven quickly. We all need your love and mercy, and right now, Kendra and her patient need it a little more than usual. In Christ’s name, Amen.