TLM,
I would like to echo the beginning of post 85. Scripture study requires a great deal of training and background in textual criticism, at least when it comes to technicalities of interpretation. You are getting into some detail but do not have the full context. I appreciate that in fact you have taken care to compare one passage with another, but there is much more to comparing passages than the method you are using. Knowledge of Greek is very important to interpreting what we receive as various English translations, as is understanding critical approaches to the Biblical literature.
Naturally that’s separate from universal accessbility to scripture as prayer & inspiration.

Anyone can participate in *lectio divina *without an advanced degree, but theological interpretation on cerebral concepts such as Trinity, Eucharist, Justification, Redemption, etc. is not as successful without the intellectual training to support that. I respect & trust that you are sincere in your search, but I caution you not to jump to conclusions based on an initial sense of intellectual restlessness with scriptural passages that, to any lay person, or anyone untrained, appear to compete with each other. Bring your restlessness to God, please.
The bottom line to me is always this, for anyone who was raised Catholic: What is your sacramental
experience? I can better understand doubts which then lead the doubter back to scripture if one has never experienced Christ in his sacraments. For those who have experienced him, everything else pales into insignificance. For me, an academic, to say that, is quite a statement, as I was born into an intellectual family. Yet ultimately a sacramental encounter with Christ is not intellectually reducible or explainable.
I look at your own personal struggles and see how your self-discipline, in conjunction with prayer in a Catholic tradition, has enabled you to overcome sin which would not be possible without that tradition. Does that mean nothing to you?
Peace and blessings,
E.