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Kathrin
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Yesterday at a family gathering for Easter apparently I had behaved badly 
, it was a minor issue and I felt attacked so I started defending myself, and was told later that I had raised my voice and when I raise my voice I can sound really bitchy, withiout wanting toā¦ I also talked back to my Dad when he asked me if I could just shut up, I asked him in turn if he could please not talk to me like thatā¦
Later we all talked about it (my parents, grandparents and me) and it seemed like I just hadnāt realized that nobody was really attacking me and hadnāt realized how I soundedā¦
So I think itās forgivenā¦
Today at mass though I was really struggling, wondering if I could go to communionā¦ finally I decided to go, telling myself it wasnāt a mortal sin.
I called my grandparents on the phone and apologized again in case I had hurt anybody unwillingly.
And when I got home I apologized to my Dad again and he said I didnāt have to apologize. So I think itās okā¦
Now, objectively speaking - so was it ok that I went to communion?
And the second thought I had was lighting a candle at the church close to here but then I didnāt (part of it also because I donāt want to light candles for scrupulous reasons! But I also didnāt want to get off the bus again because it was so coldā¦)
That is really difficult sometimes: I have lit many candles as acts of contrition, but then sometimes I wonder if it is compulsive.
So objectively speaking, was I right to just go home? I mean, if I went back now, would that be giving in to a compulsion, or would that be a genuine act of contrition that I should have done?
Kathrin
, it was a minor issue and I felt attacked so I started defending myself, and was told later that I had raised my voice and when I raise my voice I can sound really bitchy, withiout wanting toā¦ I also talked back to my Dad when he asked me if I could just shut up, I asked him in turn if he could please not talk to me like thatā¦Later we all talked about it (my parents, grandparents and me) and it seemed like I just hadnāt realized that nobody was really attacking me and hadnāt realized how I soundedā¦
So I think itās forgivenā¦
Today at mass though I was really struggling, wondering if I could go to communionā¦ finally I decided to go, telling myself it wasnāt a mortal sin.
I called my grandparents on the phone and apologized again in case I had hurt anybody unwillingly.
And when I got home I apologized to my Dad again and he said I didnāt have to apologize. So I think itās okā¦
Now, objectively speaking - so was it ok that I went to communion?
And the second thought I had was lighting a candle at the church close to here but then I didnāt (part of it also because I donāt want to light candles for scrupulous reasons! But I also didnāt want to get off the bus again because it was so coldā¦)
That is really difficult sometimes: I have lit many candles as acts of contrition, but then sometimes I wonder if it is compulsive.
So objectively speaking, was I right to just go home? I mean, if I went back now, would that be giving in to a compulsion, or would that be a genuine act of contrition that I should have done?
Kathrin
