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Cyril_Of_Canada
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Hi. For some time now I’ve had invasive thoughts come to my mind from time-to-time that are aimed at cursing the Holy Spirit or God. I’ve always tried to cut it off at the instant I perceive them. Sometimes I get “F the–” before I cut the thought off.
Lately, it’s been happening more frequently, and all last night and even now it has been happening none stop. The full curse-thought has managed to slip into my mind twice last night and a couple of times. I’ve prayed for God to have mercy on me a sinner and the Lord’s Prayer as I resist, and try to focus on other things. I’ll pray to God, read scripture, sing praise songs. It just wouldn’t stop no matter how hard I tried and how much I tried. Yeah, I don’t will any of it to enter my mine and I don’t consent and I’m just sick of these thoughts and temptations to provoke the unforgiveable sin. I need prayers. I hope I didn’t commit the unforgiveable sin if the thought entered my mind but I feel tormented by these thoughts and worn down by them. And I wish they’d go away. Anyone else struggle with this. It’s really counterproductive and is playing off my fear of committing the unforgiveable sin. I often pray to God “your will be done and not mine.” And I keep in mind that this may be happening in order to teach me about self control in other areas of my life. I currently have a masterbation and porn addiction which I’m using the same methods to be self-controlled and it has worked. But still. I hope I didn’t commit the unforgiveable sin. There was one time in the past I got tired of the thoughts and said “Okay fine, and cursed God in my mine” to make it go away. Then I asked God to forgive me. I thought that I might have some disorder.
Lately, it’s been happening more frequently, and all last night and even now it has been happening none stop. The full curse-thought has managed to slip into my mind twice last night and a couple of times. I’ve prayed for God to have mercy on me a sinner and the Lord’s Prayer as I resist, and try to focus on other things. I’ll pray to God, read scripture, sing praise songs. It just wouldn’t stop no matter how hard I tried and how much I tried. Yeah, I don’t will any of it to enter my mine and I don’t consent and I’m just sick of these thoughts and temptations to provoke the unforgiveable sin. I need prayers. I hope I didn’t commit the unforgiveable sin if the thought entered my mind but I feel tormented by these thoughts and worn down by them. And I wish they’d go away. Anyone else struggle with this. It’s really counterproductive and is playing off my fear of committing the unforgiveable sin. I often pray to God “your will be done and not mine.” And I keep in mind that this may be happening in order to teach me about self control in other areas of my life. I currently have a masterbation and porn addiction which I’m using the same methods to be self-controlled and it has worked. But still. I hope I didn’t commit the unforgiveable sin. There was one time in the past I got tired of the thoughts and said “Okay fine, and cursed God in my mine” to make it go away. Then I asked God to forgive me. I thought that I might have some disorder.