New Convert, Already Frustrated By Local Parish

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I think I’m tending to take to sacramentals lately because it lets me integrate the material into the spiritual. As a Protestant, sometimes it gets too much about the head and Heaven than about lifestyle, experience, emotion, and nature. Too much thinking about God, not enough acting like Him.
 
I think I’m tending to take to sacramentals lately because it lets me integrate the material into the spiritual. As a Protestant, sometimes it gets too much about the head and Heaven than about lifestyle, experience, emotion, and nature. Too much thinking about God, not enough acting like Him.
Romans 8: 28 And we know that to them that love God, all things work together unto good, to such as, according to his purpose, are called to be saints.

Many things are simply out of focus. He will use them all for your good. Good Spiritual directors are “out there”. finding one means risking. it’s worth it. the best guide is one who has already been through the pass. I have seen some very helpful posts on this thread. There are many who seek the good with you.

peace
 
Yes. Just understand, I was seeing things in a very scrupulous and anxious light. I like the priest I confess to, and just took things way too hard. He touched on a trigger for my illness. But they are right, I need to loosen up. I squeeze my brain real hard trying to keep my worldview together, trying to keep control.

LOL, I mean, our priest just went all hellfire and brimstone on the congregation yesterday! I was moving too fast, trying to be super duper careful about my parish because I had heard about some of the abuses and heterodoxy going on these days. So when anything had a superficial resemblance to those things I tripped my own alarm.
 
No, and it will be till next Easter most likely until I can be… 😦 I really want to take Communion.

I came into the RCIA program right on the last Sunday before Lent.

I need the program, but I tend to wind up helping teach sometimes rather than learning. Although I still do learn in there, about more down to earth matters and such. Not going to say I’m above it: I have to get it in my heart, because lately I’ve been making the mistake of projecting an evangelical heart through a Catholic lens. I’ve never been a regular member of any church - I could count how many times I went to church as a Protestant on two hands - because I never felt it right to belong to a church whose beliefs I couldn’t consent to in full. So I’ve never been around Catholics like this before. No close relatives or friends are Catholic, and my closest relatives and friends are either Jehovah’s Witnesses or anti-catholic Protestants, or just have an aversion to religion in general even though they can respect it in some ways.

The closest I’ve ever come to Catholicism is through some of the traits and values and imagery of the Gothic subculture, ironically enough. But some of the other traits, values, and imagery of that culture can get in the way of hammering out my heart. A good Goth is supposed to live and let live, love intellect and art, and sometimes the supernatural/mystical (not always), and just enjoy creation while understanding sometimes painful and ugly things can be good. They’re supposed to be about substance against superficiality, and detest consumerism, manipulation, and lies. But the bad traits a lot of us fall into are stubbornness, pretentiousness, anger, self-pity, and an unhealthy level of morbidity. Strongly self-willed you could say. I used to be the former, life events turned me into the latter. I’m just trying by God’s grace to scrub myself clean again, but first I need to feel safe somehow. And also, I managed to somehow convince myself that since I wasn’t culturally like other Protestants that I was sinning.
My first cousins son is from gothic subculture. his catholicism (externally) is charismatic/penitent. very beautiful, a cause of great joy. he is razor sharp on the catechism, and eager/able to give an explanation of the cause of his joy. James 1:2 My brethren, count it all joy, when you shall fall into divers temptations; 3 Knowing that the trying of your faith worketh patience. 4 And patience hath a perfect work; that you may be perfect and entire, failing in nothing.

Ephesians Chapter 2:22 and you too, in him, are being built up into a dwelling-place of God in the Spirit.

Ephesians Chapter 3:14 This, then, is what I pray, kneeling before the Father, 15 from whom every fatherhood, in heaven or on earth, takes its name. 16 In the abundance of his glory may he, through his Spirit, enable you to grow firm in power with regard to your inner self, 17 so that Christ may live in your hearts through faith, and then, planted in love and built on love, 18 with all God’s holy people you will have the strength to grasp the breadth and the length, the height and the depth; 19 so that, knowing the love of Christ, which is beyond knowledge, you may be filled with the utter fullness of God.

peace
 
It looks like I may have been a little too quick to forgive… I just went over common liturgical abuses and I was right. There are a few in our church. Having Extraordinary Ministers during masses with low numbers of congregants, letting the children from the parish school read the Scripture readings on weekdays, the priest leaving the sanctuary during the homily and interrupting to have the organist play songs to make an example, people not bowing at proper times, changing “Lord, wash away my…” to “Lord, wash away our…” and I think “men” gets dropped from the Nicene Creed. I think.

And then there’s the priest telling me false information about penance, and the deacon mentioning the universal priesthood while talking about blessing sacramentals.
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I was right.

But what can a 21 y/o schizo kid do directly in the face of this kind of pretense? I think I should just report it to the bishop and leave before I get “pray the liturgy of the hours for three weeks” as a penance XD

Of all people, why the hell does it take a fresh outta the oven Protestant to notice these things. UGH.
 
I wish I could find a Latin Novus Ordo here. For some reason the TLM kinda scares me after watching it. Makes me feel like God’s going to step on me like an ant. Hmm… actually I could get used to that.
 
May the Lord keep my words from evil… but with that said, I’m getting very tired of my local parish already, and I’ve only been there about a month. The deacon keeps jumping to conclusions about me, specifically trying to tell me how I need Catholicism in my heart, and trying to dissuade me from being “analytical” I guess. I have a high IQ, and like to delve into the details of things, but I do it because it’s a passion to me - ]
I once gave up speaking for Lent. Maybe you could try that.
 
I once gave up speaking for Lent. Maybe you could try that.
This thread has developed a long way since the original post, and given the final conclusion that there were liturgical abuses in my church your hostility is uncalled for praxising.

I’ve tried to undo my own hostility and self-importance in this thread so much to the point I went to far and blinded myself to things I was right about.
 
It looks like I may have been a little too quick to forgive… I just went over common liturgical abuses and I was right. There are a few in our church. Having Extraordinary Ministers during masses with low numbers of congregants, letting the children from the parish school read the Scripture readings on weekdays, the priest leaving the sanctuary during the homily and interrupting to have the organist play songs to make an example, people not bowing at proper times, changing “Lord, wash away my…” to “Lord, wash away our…” and I think “men” gets dropped from the Nicene Creed. I think.

And then there’s the priest telling me false information about penance, and the deacon mentioning the universal priesthood while talking about blessing sacramentals.
🤷
I was right.

But what can a 21 y/o schizo kid do directly in the face of this kind of pretense? I think I should just report it to the bishop and leave before I get “pray the liturgy of the hours for three weeks” as a penance XD

Of all people, why the hell does it take a fresh outta the oven Protestant to notice these things. UGH.
I didn’t want to say anything more than I did in my original post #36. I can’t help it but I’m a realist.
 
I didn’t want to say anything more than I did in my original post #36. I can’t help it but I’m a realist.
Well, now that I know I’m right to be weary - thank you - I’ll be taking care of business.

I’m just afraid to wind up parish hopping every time I see something off. The nearest TLM parish is 60 miles round trip (I just checked), Latin NOs are probably rare as hell (doesn’t seem I can check), and my town is more liberal politically (poor liberal, not hipster liberal) last I heard so now I’m kinda like eek.

Well, God’s with me. Please pray that I figure out what to do :rolleyes:

God bless.

Although I think the bowing is a diocesan issue, so nvm.
 
It looks like I may have been a little too quick to forgive… I just went over common liturgical abuses and I was right. There are a few in our church. Having Extraordinary Ministers during masses with low numbers of congregants, letting the children from the parish school read the Scripture readings on weekdays, the priest leaving the sanctuary during the homily and interrupting to have the organist play songs to make an example, people not bowing at proper times, changing “Lord, wash away my…” to “Lord, wash away our…” and I think “men” gets dropped from the Nicene Creed. I think.

And then there’s the priest telling me false information about penance, and the deacon mentioning the universal priesthood while talking about blessing sacramentals.
🤷
I was right.

But what can a 21 y/o schizo kid do directly in the face of this kind of pretense? I think I should just report it to the bishop and leave before I get “pray the liturgy of the hours for three weeks” as a penance XD

Of all people, why the hell does it take a fresh outta the oven Protestant to notice these things. UGH.
-These liturgical abuses you have mentioned aren’t exactly the great blinking guilty signs you seem to view them as.
-The language regarding extraordinary ministers does allow for some levels of liberal interpretation, and while members of this forum may argue about specifics it is hardly a clear-cut yes or no decision for a priest.
-The changing of a single word in a prayer is usually simply an accident that has caught on and nothing more.
-There is nothing forbidding youth from reading scriptures in liturgical law and it is a matter up to the Bishop.
-People not bowing at proper times is simply a difficult matter to correct and comes from the confusion of parishioners rather than intention abuse.
-In addition your Priest and Deacon are allowed to be incorrect or misspeak about matters like penance, no one has a perfect memory or education and when most of our ministers were trained getting reliable materials and answers about such things was much more difficult than it is today with things like databases and searchable documents.

And yes leaving the sanctuary is not proper during the Homily, but even in that case it is simply a matter that needs to be addressed charitably and nothing more.

As for other matters, I am a Young Catholic myself only 24 years of age and I have to say that while I understand in some sense where you are coming from, you are making a grave error in rejecting the ideas and comments of those who hold authority over you. I like you am very analytical (Heck, I’m an Engineer being analytical is my Job), but even of the past 3 years I can honestly say that I have grown a lot mentally. The 21 year old version of me could simply not compare to the 24 year old version of me as an Engineer, partially because I wasn’t experienced enough and partially because my Brain, like any 21 year olds, hadn’t undergone the last stages of development. Even as a teenager there were plenty of points where I figured that because I was far more advanced than my peers, and in some realms held more knowledge than the average adult (such as the ability to do mid-level calculus) that I simply had a better idea about how life worked.

Practicing good thought doesn’t work like that though. The true mark of an individual who is ready to lead is being ready to listen. You may disagree with the words of your Priest and Deacon, you may even believe that they are outright wrong, but that doesn’t change the fact that something lead them to say those things. When someone like a Deacon says you are being overly analytical you should put strong consideration into what lead him to say that. Look at your words, look at your voice inflection, what lead him to think that of you? By dwelling on his words you have a chance to understand something about your character and how you display yourself to others. Criticism from someone who has no intention to hurt you should always be considered a gift because it grants us a real opportunity to grow and refine our character.

That said there is nothing wrong with changing Parishes out of a simple preference for one over the other, but if you change Parishes simply because you were offended by the flaws of men then you might find yourself doing a lot of traveling in the near future.
 
Patrick, I have to say that I have been to parishes where the person in authority is not teaching the truth of our faith. I would search for a pastor teaches the Truth. So many can be lead away from the Truth when they are new to the faith or have never been properly taught. I want to keep growing in my faith. There are new young priests out there who are on fire for the true teachings of the Church. OP, you don’t have to go to a TLM to find a good parish. In Christ.
 
-These liturgical abuses you have mentioned aren’t exactly the great blinking guilty signs you seem to view them as.
-The language regarding extraordinary ministers does allow for some levels of liberal interpretation, and while members of this forum may argue about specifics it is hardly a clear-cut yes or no decision for a priest.
-The changing of a single word in a prayer is usually simply an accident that has caught on and nothing more.
-There is nothing forbidding youth from reading scriptures in liturgical law and it is a matter up to the Bishop.
-People not bowing at proper times is simply a difficult matter to correct and comes from the confusion of parishioners rather than intention abuse.
-In addition your Priest and Deacon are allowed to be incorrect or misspeak about matters like penance, no one has a perfect memory or education and when most of our ministers were trained getting reliable materials and answers about such things was much more difficult than it is today with things like databases and searchable documents.

And yes leaving the sanctuary is not proper during the Homily, but even in that case it is simply a matter that needs to be addressed charitably and nothing more.

As for other matters, I am a Young Catholic myself only 24 years of age and I have to say that while I understand in some sense where you are coming from, you are making a grave error in rejecting the ideas and comments of those who hold authority over you. I like you am very analytical (Heck, I’m an Engineer being analytical is my Job), but even of the past 3 years I can honestly say that I have grown a lot mentally. The 21 year old version of me could simply not compare to the 24 year old version of me as an Engineer, partially because I wasn’t experienced enough and partially because my Brain, like any 21 year olds, hadn’t undergone the last stages of development. Even as a teenager there were plenty of points where I figured that because I was far more advanced than my peers, and in some realms held more knowledge than the average adult (such as the ability to do mid-level calculus) that I simply had a better idea about how life worked.

Practicing good thought doesn’t work like that though. The true mark of an individual who is ready to lead is being ready to listen. You may disagree with the words of your Priest and Deacon, you may even believe that they are outright wrong, but that doesn’t change the fact that something lead them to say those things. When someone like a Deacon says you are being overly analytical you should put strong consideration into what lead him to say that. Look at your words, look at your voice inflection, what lead him to think that of you? By dwelling on his words you have a chance to understand something about your character and how you display yourself to others. Criticism from someone who has no intention to hurt you should always be considered a gift because it grants us a real opportunity to grow and refine our character.

That said there is nothing wrong with changing Parishes out of a simple preference for one over the other, but if you change Parishes simply because you were offended by the flaws of men then you might find yourself doing a lot of traveling in the near future.
Patrick, I have actually followed some of their advice. I haven’t spurned every last word they’ve had to say, because I am aware enough of my own inner clockwork (so-to-speak) to know that they have some good points. I’m not trying to make this personal anymore, the deacon is quite obviously a caring man, and despite some of the mistakes I still admire the priest and find him pretty cool.

I know those issues I listed aren’t exactly extreme, but I just feel like at my current level in the RCIA program I really will not be able to make an impact. And I’m just trying to do what’s right, misguided as I can be at times. I just don’t want to p/o anybody and make my “crossing” any more difficult than it has to be, or put my spiritual formation at risk.

I’m just a passionate young convert who converted for orthodoxy and who’s desperate to keep as close to it as possible. Hopefully you can understand what it feels like to get hit with this kind of perplexity right off the bat, even if it isn’t exactly a clown mass :rolleyes:

Wait, most of those things aren’t actually abuses? >.< Now I’m really confused. And I don’t know how to find out what the bishop here permits either.

I apologize, I didn’t read slowly enough XD
 
Patrick, I have to say that I have been to parishes where the person in authority is not teaching the truth of our faith. I would search for a pastor teaches the Truth. So many can be lead away from the Truth when they are new to the faith or have never been properly taught. I want to keep growing in my faith. There are new young priests out there who are on fire for the true teachings of the Church. OP, you don’t have to go to a TLM to find a good parish. In Christ.
There is a huge difference between someone consistently giving false teachings and someone making mistakes.
 
Oh my dear young friend, no matter how intelectual we are it is not about me it is all about Jesus.
Peace, Carlan
 
It looks like I may have been a little too quick to forgive… I just went over common liturgical abuses and I was right. There are a few in our church. Having Extraordinary Ministers during masses with low numbers of congregants, letting the children from the parish school read the Scripture readings on weekdays, the priest leaving the sanctuary during the homily and interrupting to have the organist play songs to make an example, people not bowing at proper times, changing “Lord, wash away my…” to “Lord, wash away our…” and I think “men” gets dropped from the Nicene Creed. I think.
Most of these aren’t even wrong - it is up to the priest how many EMHCs he wants - if he wants to delegate the entire congregation, he can.

As long as those kids have received their First Holy Communion, and assuming they are literate, they can read at Mass, especially at Masses where most of the people present are Moms with their kids.

If the priest wants to pepper his homily with musical interludes, this is his choice - he can use whatever teaching method he thinks will work for the majority of his congregation. There is nothing in Church law that requires him to stand like a statue at the ambo and make a robotic speech. He is discouraged from wandering around, but not actually forbidden to do so.

The rubrics on when to bow change so frequently that people just go with what they learned in Confirmation classes, and ignore everyone else. You’ll do the same thing - you’ll still be bowing at the time that is correct at the present moment now, when you are learning about it, even after it’s been changed a thousand times, just because it’s how you were taught.

One thing you will also learn about the Catholic Church is that not only are we not a Religion of the Book in the sense of sola scriptura, we are also not a Religion of the Book when it comes to the documents of the Church. It is a lived experience; not an experience of following written rules. The canon law, keep in mind, was written by Italians - they aren’t expecting people to follow it very rigidly, but just to mostly adhere to the spirit of it, when it suits the situation to do so. 😉
And then there’s the priest telling me false information about penance, and the deacon mentioning the universal priesthood while talking about blessing sacramentals.
🤷
I was right.
A Deacon has the authority to bless your sacramentals - he is an ordained member of the clergy. The only things he can’t do are hear Confessions or say Mass.
 
The deacon made it sound as though anyone could bless it, but I can excuse that in light of how you’ve shown me that our parish is doing fine. And you’re also right, I need to scrap that whole legalistic Protestant mindset - I was trying to follow the letter of traditional orthodoxy without realizing the spirit of traditional and contemporary orthodoxy. My bad.

Lately I’ve been trying to follow St. Francis’ example in order to get the ways of the Church more into my heart.
 
What it do, @Wounded.

I been lurking this thread since you started it.

A few thoughts from a convert from the Baptist denomination, who is on fire for the Lord…
  1. in my observation, you are wearing yourself out with your “armchair quarterbacking” of your parish. You are more Catholic than the Pope. This will turn out to be wearisome for you later down the road and you will crash in your faith, perhaps to never return. That would be major uncool.
  2. Make Jesus Christ the center of your faith, not your orthodoxy.
  3. I hope you have a good day today.
 
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