As a Pentecostal, I am not sure that many would share the same doubts that I have sometimes. I know Satan is a liar and Satan and Demons have an influence on this world and can fill our head with lies sometimes, so I just try to remain in a state of Spiritual Warfare, using the Word of God as my sword.
2 Corinthians 10:4 (King James Version)
4(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds.
Luke 10:19 (New International Version)
19I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.
Some doubts include:
When someone speaks a word of knowledge, I do have some doubts as to weather some of them are speaking from their heart that God gave them, or speaking what they think God gave them.
I know this would be difficult for a Catholic to understand as it is not practiced in the Catholic Church, but 4Square will now what I mean
1 Corinthians 14:6
Now, brothers, if I come to you and speak in tongues, what good will I be to you, unless I bring you some revelation or knowledge or prophecy or word of instruction?
1 Corinthians 12:8-10 (New International Version)
8To one there is given through the Spirit the message of wisdom, to another the message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, 9to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, 10to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues,[a] and to still another the interpretation of tongues.
I also have doubts about speaking in tongues. Sometimes when I speak in tongues, I can feel the spirit, the words are just pouring out of me, my mouth is just moving and speaking words I have no understanding of yet there is no thought pattern on my behalf there to form these words coming out of my mouth, not like a trance, but like I am a garden hose and the Holy Spirit is water.
Other times I just feel like I am trying to hard or I question “What am I saying?” Am I forming these words myself because I am trying so hard?
It can be hard sometimes, because sometimes it is so powerful and just happens, other times I feel like I am trying to hard. A very personal doubt of my to air on a catholic forum, but none the less, I have.
I also have doubts that make me explore the history of the church, Catholocism, Orthodoxy, and Anglicanism, making sure I am following God’s will in his instructions. I pray every day to God “Father, guide me in correct doctrine and truth, reveal to me your proper ways, reveal to me sound doctrine, lead me to the congregation that you know I need to be a part of and that is true”
Sometimes I pray to God and say “God if you want me to be Catholic, I will be Catholic, I will not stop it, or God, if you want me to be Orthodox, I will be happy to go where you want me to be, where it is correct in your eyes”
I find it important to question your faith sometimes, what I mean by that is to not question the mysteries so much, such as the Trinity, persistent prayer, etc, but just making sure that you are following Christianity correctly.
I guess I was kind of afraid to air my doubts on a Catholic board as a Pentecostal. It is not like a conversation where you make eye contact and people can try to understand you and be in your shoes, when you do this stuff on a message board people just rip you a new one and pick apart every word you typed, etc. I was just imagining in my mind typing some of this stuff that Catholics would jump on me saying “See! a Demon is speaking the tongues for you” and “See, all those people around you that are delivering personal prophecy and a word of knowledge are just making it up out of ignorance”
I really hope you guys do not treat me like this for opening up to you.