Not sure of sin. What do I do?

[ServantofGod345]

I am a southern baptist thinking about converting to Catholicism. I have been doing a lot of research about it, and I am really stuck on one part of my life. This didn’t start happening until recently. So basically 3 years ago I started having flashbacks of being raped and panic attacks where I could remember the guy, what he said, etc. it was like I started unveiling all these new memories. It began to dictate my life and I tried killing myself a few times for it, but after a lot of working through and talking to people God brought me through it. But I went to confession a month or so ago and I started wondering if those flashbacks were actually suppressed memories or something my head made up. I am so confused and I don’t know whether I am in a state of grace because of it. And I just want to spend all of my life with God, and I don’t know what to do. I wasn’t trying to deceive anyone. I honestly thought it happened, but I’m scared that if my head made it up, I’ve been lying about it. And it just scares me because I want to be in God’s grace and I thought I honestly worked through it with God, and I’m just super confused now. Please help me

 

[MaryT777]

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling so much currently. It might seem like a good time to get a counselor to help you work through these issues. I hope that you find someone you can talk to professionaly about these issues so you won’t be so “haunted”
Mary.

 

[TARRAT]

I** am a southern baptist **thinking about converting to Catholicism. I have been doing a lot of research about it, and I am really stuck on one part of my life. This didn’t start happening until recently. So basically 3 years ago I started having flashbacks of being raped and panic attacks where I could remember the guy, what he said, etc. it was like I started unveiling all these new memories. It began to dictate my life and I tried killing myself a few times for it, but after a lot of working through and talking to people God brought me through it. But **I went to confession a month or so ago **and I started wondering if those flashbacks were actually suppressed memories or something my head made up. I am so confused and I don’t know whether I am in a state of grace because of it. And I just want to spend all of my life with God, and I don’t know what to do. I wasn’t trying to deceive anyone. I honestly thought it happened, but I’m scared that if my head made it up, I’ve been lying about it. And it just scares me because I want to be in God’s grace and I thought I honestly worked through it with God, and I’m just super confused now. Please help me

May you be at peace in our Lord.

You say you are Southern Baptist,to who then did you go to confession?

It sounds like you could use the help of a priest and a therapist they can help more than anybody here.

Please don’t harm yourself God loves you and wants you to continue.

 

[ServantofGod345]

I went to confession to a priest. I don’t know what sparked it, but I just went. I can’t go to therapy because my parents won’t allow it. Thanks guys

 

[J_Peterson]

Start by contacting a rape crisis center. Search in your area for one. If you can’t find one, this is for the Boston Area Rape Crisis Center (www.barcc.org/, 800.841.8371). I’m sure if you need help they will help even if you are not in the Boston area. Please talk to someone who knows how to deal with your situation. Confession is not really the place for this situation.