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MonjaFutura
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It has been 4 months since I last went to Mass (not by my choice so don’t say “go to church” cuz that’s an obvious idea). I need to go to confession but my parents can’t take me for a while. My best friend is moving away. The guy that I’ve liked forever said “no” when I asked him out (and then I asked him why and he said it’s cuz he’s a jerk). I’m depressed right now. I found out not too long ago that I’m probably bipolar. Part of being bipolar is getting major obsessions. I can’t trust myself anymore. I get legit depressed for no reason. I’m virtually never suicidal and at any rate I’d never carry out my plans cuz I believe in Heaven and Hell and Purgatory and I’m not sure where I’d rest if I killed myself. Sometimes I hurt so much for no reason and then other times I’m happy and i can do anything (or so I feel) and I want to level out but I don’t want to use medication yet because I’m not sure what that might do to who I am. It’s really hard because the mania, where I’m super happy, isn’t too bad but it’s all so unpredictable. Sometimes it’s a minute to minute moodswing but other times it can be hours until my mood improves. It stinks. Anyone else bipolar that I could talk to? I could really use someone to talk to. Yeah, this is a very random posting!