‘You’ have made the decision. I’m just not sure which part of ‘you’ made it. I think it may be unconsciously decided and passed up to the conscious ‘you’.
MAYBE GOD MADE THE DECISION
Aquinas said,
“God changes the will WITHOUT FORCING IT.
But he can change the will from the fact that
He himself operates in the will as He does in nature,” De Veritatis 22:9.
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308 The truth that God is at work in
all the actions of his creatures is inseparable from faith in God the Creator.
God is the
first cause who operates in and through
secondary causes:
"For God is at work in you,
both to
will and to
work for his good pleasure."171
Far from diminishing the creature’s dignity, this truth
enhances it.
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For Augustine says (De Civ. Dei v, 1) that the Divine
will or
power is called fate.
But the Divine will or power is not in creatures, but
in God.
Therefore fate is not in creatures but
in God.
“The Divine will is
cause of all things that happens, as Augustine says (De Trin. iii, 1 seqq.). Therefore all things are
subject to fate.
The same is true for events in our lives. Relative to us they often appear to be by chance.
But relative to God, who directs
everything according to his divine plan,
nothing occurs by chance.
Hence if this divine influence
stopped, every operation would
stop.”
Every operation, therefore, of
anything is traced back to Him as
its cause. (Summa Contra Gentiles, Book III.)
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God bless