I’m not sure if I replied to this already - but I have to wonder if you were describing me?
I finally had an emotional meltdown this week. Personal losses, finances, health issues, work - I’m worried about most of the same that you are. I do have a job - part-time but not enough to keep things afloat unless I’m really careful. And at times, they remind me (based on working conditions) that others would be glad to have the job. (Like I don’t know that?) I need a REAL job that compensates for the bills I mail out - not just gets the job done for big business - and there are none. I know.
After cutting costs and feeling cable is an added expense, as well as against my morals, I lost my TV last week (my only companion and perhaps what finally put me over the edge), as well as a dear but controlling friend who refuses to speak to me unless I do things THEIR way. Breakdown? Been there - AM there - cried that.
May God and Our Lady hear our prayers for each other and all those like us. May God provide, Our Lady intercede for and St. Anthony find you a job. May I be able to hang onto mine before losing my mind.
Amen.