Continued…
As to why……
As to what drew me to this path, I can not say with any degree of certainty. I do know that I have been drawn to it ever since I was a little kid which might be a bit odd to some, but I never gave it a second thought – certainly not because it was around the house in any way (I was baptized Catholic and grew up in a fairly conservative Catholic environment – went to parochial school, the whole nine yards), but I was always very strongly drawn, in a way I can’t really explain, to the cycles of the seasons and the year and the cycle of life in general (life death and rebirth). What I know now to be the Quarter and Cross-Quarter days of the year were always very special to me as a kid, but I really didn’t know why; I just knew they were special days in some way. I don’t know why I knew that, I just did.
It’s definitely not something I just picked up in high school or college, etc. It’s always been with me, or a part of me, if that makes any sense. Now that I’m writing this, I realize that it’s really difficult to put on paper and try and explain it! I think mainly because I feel it’s always been a part of me and it’s just not something I’ve ever questioned.
This is a spiritual path that one does not seem to choose; rather, it chooses you. That said, it’s entirely your choice whether or not to follow it. I really believe it’s something you must be drawn to – one of the reasons you’ll never see Wiccans, Druids, Asatru, etc. proselytizing; I strongly believe it’s a path you must come to on your own. Considering I was drawn to it at such an early age has occasionally made me wonder why or even at times how, but it’s not something I’ve ever really delved that deeply into; like I said, I’ve never really questioned it in any great detail, it just seemed/seems “natural” to me. I have always felt more at ease on this path, perhaps because as I mentioned earlier, in some odd way, it’s always been a part of me, despite my Catholic upbringing.
I consider myself Celtic Wiccan, but I do not necessarily hold to all the tenets of “modern” Wicca per se, as I incorporate into it some of my own beliefs, if you will (for lack of a better way of putting it), from when I was younger, long before I knew what Wicca actually really was. Many, indeed if not most, are exactly the same, some not so much. For example, the elements of nature, particularly wind and fire, are very strong in my personal path, but I couldn’t tell you exactly why; it’s just the way it’s always been.
So I guess in short, why am I on this path? The answer may not make much sense, but simply put, it’s a path I’ve always been on literally as far back as I can remember.
Not really sure if the above makes any sense – this is really the first time I’ve tried to explain it to someone else (great exercise!)