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JLCecilia
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I am having one of those days where I am having a hard time dealing w/ disappointment in my marriage. I had prayed a novena to Sts.Monica and Therese to help my husband, and to help me deal w/ our difference w/ grace and give me peace until then. Did okay for about a week.
I do this to myself where a bad day equals no hope for the future - to be a SAHM, to get a bigger home to have more kids . . .I gave DH the 3rd degree as graciously as possible and voiced my fear and sadness about our future if he does not seek some direction for his future - either a degree or a promotion. All in all, I’m having a hard time dealing w/ not being able to count on him to take care of us and always having to pick up the slack one way or another. I hate to ‘say’ this out loud, I know it’s aweful, but he is not the kind of person I had hoped to be married to - I want him to be the spiritual leader of our family, the breadwinner, and to work as hard as me or more.
Took my lunch to go to the sitter and give DS his breathing treatment for bronchiolitis (we’re on the upswing of recovery), and swung by the house to check on a package and lo and behold (to no surprise), DH is still in bed. He says he doesn’t feel well, but after about 5 years of this, I truly believe it can be helped - by quitting smoking, eating better, exercising, and getting to bed at a decent hour.
I’m just so sad and tired and I need strength to carry on for my children. Just one of them days I guess. Also, feeling reluctant to put my prayers in the book at our Adoration chapel or simply to face the crowds at church - feeling ashamed and a big ‘I told ya so’ hanging over me right now like my marriage/family is a sham.
I do this to myself where a bad day equals no hope for the future - to be a SAHM, to get a bigger home to have more kids . . .I gave DH the 3rd degree as graciously as possible and voiced my fear and sadness about our future if he does not seek some direction for his future - either a degree or a promotion. All in all, I’m having a hard time dealing w/ not being able to count on him to take care of us and always having to pick up the slack one way or another. I hate to ‘say’ this out loud, I know it’s aweful, but he is not the kind of person I had hoped to be married to - I want him to be the spiritual leader of our family, the breadwinner, and to work as hard as me or more.
Took my lunch to go to the sitter and give DS his breathing treatment for bronchiolitis (we’re on the upswing of recovery), and swung by the house to check on a package and lo and behold (to no surprise), DH is still in bed. He says he doesn’t feel well, but after about 5 years of this, I truly believe it can be helped - by quitting smoking, eating better, exercising, and getting to bed at a decent hour.
I’m just so sad and tired and I need strength to carry on for my children. Just one of them days I guess. Also, feeling reluctant to put my prayers in the book at our Adoration chapel or simply to face the crowds at church - feeling ashamed and a big ‘I told ya so’ hanging over me right now like my marriage/family is a sham.
Father God grants this Your servant a respite from the depression that has come upon her. We pray for change in her life in the form of her dh maturing and taking on more responsibility for the family. Continue to strength this dw who is trying so hard. Let not her sacrifices go unrewarded. Please continue the endurance she ,no doubts has to,care for a family