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Whitacre_Girl
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I am asking if anyone has the strength and time to please pray for me to God and Mary and whoever can possibly help me right now.
I have been struggling very hard in my life, and God has always been a rock for me. However, be it through the work of the devil, my own mind, or the trials God has declared for me (or a combination of all three) my faith is starting to shut down. I am doubt God in ways I never have before and I don’t know how to keep on with my faith. I need clarity. I feel like I can’t take communion because my faltering faith hasn’t given me the strength I needed to combat sins I have always struggled with and I have fallen back in to those, and I don’t know if I can even take communion because of this and those doubts. I feel so lost right now, and…I really do want to love and trust Jesus like I used to…I just don’t know if I can anymore. I feel so abandoned by him, and so utterly alone. He was such a big part of my life for so long that I feel like I am losing a best friend or a close family member. I feel like I trusted him and he has let me down.
Advice isn’t what I really need right now. I am meeting with a priest about this issue as soon as I can get ahold of him, and I am talking to some people in my church about possibly switching to another parish that would be better set up to receive me and help me than mine is. I just need prayer to get through this. I was born non-christian and the devil had a firm grip on me then. I don’t want to go back to him. But I don’t feel like I can trust God any more. PLEASE PRAY. Everything else seems to have failed. I can’t even receive the strength of communion anymore because of this. I am so utterly cut off.
I have been struggling very hard in my life, and God has always been a rock for me. However, be it through the work of the devil, my own mind, or the trials God has declared for me (or a combination of all three) my faith is starting to shut down. I am doubt God in ways I never have before and I don’t know how to keep on with my faith. I need clarity. I feel like I can’t take communion because my faltering faith hasn’t given me the strength I needed to combat sins I have always struggled with and I have fallen back in to those, and I don’t know if I can even take communion because of this and those doubts. I feel so lost right now, and…I really do want to love and trust Jesus like I used to…I just don’t know if I can anymore. I feel so abandoned by him, and so utterly alone. He was such a big part of my life for so long that I feel like I am losing a best friend or a close family member. I feel like I trusted him and he has let me down.
Advice isn’t what I really need right now. I am meeting with a priest about this issue as soon as I can get ahold of him, and I am talking to some people in my church about possibly switching to another parish that would be better set up to receive me and help me than mine is. I just need prayer to get through this. I was born non-christian and the devil had a firm grip on me then. I don’t want to go back to him. But I don’t feel like I can trust God any more. PLEASE PRAY. Everything else seems to have failed. I can’t even receive the strength of communion anymore because of this. I am so utterly cut off.
