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bluecollarjock
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Hi, Im having a little trouble discerning Gods will for me at this stage in the game…I was a police officer, working patrol, SWAT, academy instructor, and also a college coach in addition to running an athletic ministry…was the All American Dream for me…about a year ago I was forced to medically retire at 35 with a bunch of health issues from botched surgeries and doctors mistakes…Im recovering well now thank God, thank God…but as I recover and gain some health and energy back, moving forward is not as clear cut as I would hope…I knew in my heart at the time I was a cop and a coach it was where I was called to be…but now Im not as sure which direction to take, and I do not want to do anything that Im not totally on fire and passionate about, which is why I was good at most things ive done…being passionate and excited about life and the things I was doing…
I want do go to grad school, but its been 10 years since my last masters so I have to take the GRE…been in a prep course and Im totally bombing the homework, not scoring as high as I will need for the PhD programs I want…I dont even know if Ill score high enough to get into some masters programs despite already have one…and regardless, Im only hoping that if I get into a program it will be something I am passionate about and challenged in a good way that motivates me like other opportunities in life…
Im still going to doctors all the time rehabbing and recovering from my own health issues, so I guess its ok Im not full swing in a grad program or working part time, but I do feel like Im in a rut in the sense Im not doing anything for anyone but myself even if it is to get better medically…where as before as a cop, coach, and leading ministry, it was all about serving God and others…so yea I do not feel spiritually connected or “worthy” as I used to be in a sense…my prayer life and scripture study has struggled tremendously…I was using the time off from work to wake up early and go to daily Mass, but since studying and struggling for the GRE the past few months that has slipped as well…Im just going to take the test and get it over with next week or the week after, so I can move on in whichever direction it is…if I have to take another year to study for this idiotic GRE when I already have a proven track record academically and 10 years work experience in two different full time jobs concurrently, I will do what I have to do…but it does feel like its dragging me down…
I dont want life to pass me by and I do not feel like Im living it as fully as I once did…please pray I seek and find the Will of God in my next adventures, career, social life, whatever it is now that things have changed so drastically in one year…
Thanks a bunch!
I want do go to grad school, but its been 10 years since my last masters so I have to take the GRE…been in a prep course and Im totally bombing the homework, not scoring as high as I will need for the PhD programs I want…I dont even know if Ill score high enough to get into some masters programs despite already have one…and regardless, Im only hoping that if I get into a program it will be something I am passionate about and challenged in a good way that motivates me like other opportunities in life…
Im still going to doctors all the time rehabbing and recovering from my own health issues, so I guess its ok Im not full swing in a grad program or working part time, but I do feel like Im in a rut in the sense Im not doing anything for anyone but myself even if it is to get better medically…where as before as a cop, coach, and leading ministry, it was all about serving God and others…so yea I do not feel spiritually connected or “worthy” as I used to be in a sense…my prayer life and scripture study has struggled tremendously…I was using the time off from work to wake up early and go to daily Mass, but since studying and struggling for the GRE the past few months that has slipped as well…Im just going to take the test and get it over with next week or the week after, so I can move on in whichever direction it is…if I have to take another year to study for this idiotic GRE when I already have a proven track record academically and 10 years work experience in two different full time jobs concurrently, I will do what I have to do…but it does feel like its dragging me down…
I dont want life to pass me by and I do not feel like Im living it as fully as I once did…please pray I seek and find the Will of God in my next adventures, career, social life, whatever it is now that things have changed so drastically in one year…
Thanks a bunch!