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Jaypeeto4
Guest
Dear brothers and sisters,
Due to stress at work, I fell into thoughts that I felt were sacrilegious if not blasphemous, leading me to believe I was in mortal sin. I had been praying for several days to avoid any mortally sinful thoughts and emotions, but today, I freaked and failed. That wrecked the rest of my day, and tonight, I got home and lusts started filling my body and memories of past, repented experiences (which nonetheless carry a physical pleasure with them, which I wish they DIDN’T). Anyway, “let he who is standing beware that he does not fall,” well tonight I fell even worse. I don’t know how to fight lust well when it starts.
I pray against it, which only makes the images more vivid and the feelings more strong. Then sitting at the computer, with those feelings, I stupidly clicked on internet porn
and, without getting graphic, Fell big time. I know I shouldn’t have looked, but the temptation was so great and I was already in a weakened state. God help me.
I am so sorry and ashamed. Please pray for me that God will grant me immediately, in sheer mercy, the Graces to recover from this and make a very good, thorough confession tomorrow to my priest, and then NEVER fall like this (or like this afternoon) AGAIN. Please pray for me to recover from this TONIGHT, EVEN BEFORE tomorrow’s confession. I haven’t fallen like this in many months, and am very frustrated, sorry, and deeply disappointed in myself. Please help me recover with your prayers as I am thoroughly disgusted with myself right now. God bless you and thank you so much.
Due to stress at work, I fell into thoughts that I felt were sacrilegious if not blasphemous, leading me to believe I was in mortal sin. I had been praying for several days to avoid any mortally sinful thoughts and emotions, but today, I freaked and failed. That wrecked the rest of my day, and tonight, I got home and lusts started filling my body and memories of past, repented experiences (which nonetheless carry a physical pleasure with them, which I wish they DIDN’T). Anyway, “let he who is standing beware that he does not fall,” well tonight I fell even worse. I don’t know how to fight lust well when it starts.
I pray against it, which only makes the images more vivid and the feelings more strong. Then sitting at the computer, with those feelings, I stupidly clicked on internet porn
and, without getting graphic, Fell big time. I know I shouldn’t have looked, but the temptation was so great and I was already in a weakened state. God help me.
I am so sorry and ashamed. Please pray for me that God will grant me immediately, in sheer mercy, the Graces to recover from this and make a very good, thorough confession tomorrow to my priest, and then NEVER fall like this (or like this afternoon) AGAIN. Please pray for me to recover from this TONIGHT, EVEN BEFORE tomorrow’s confession. I haven’t fallen like this in many months, and am very frustrated, sorry, and deeply disappointed in myself. Please help me recover with your prayers as I am thoroughly disgusted with myself right now. God bless you and thank you so much.