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Grace5441
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Hello,
This is going to be a long post, so forgive me. I understand if this is too much to read and you don’t feel like reading anymore. Long story short, I am asking for prayers for my husband and I to gain employment.
Here’s the long story:
My husband and I moved to be closer to my family after he graduated from college. We’ve both been unemployed for 5 months now. We both have college degrees. I thought for sure there would be more jobs in our new area than in our old area, but that hasn’t been the case. I’m a practicing Catholic, but I’ve been so depressed and have been having thoughts of suicide. I know this is very selfish of me and I don’t know why I have these thoughts. I wish the bad thoughts would just leave me and I could be happy again.
There are practically no jobs for my husband here that are related to his degree. Any jobs that are related to his degree are in places he doesn’t want to live. We both agreed that we want to live near one of our families, so our future children would have grandma and grandpa around. Since we don’t know where his family will end up (they will be moving soon, but they don’t know where), we decided to plant roots with my family.
My husband and I have no children (we wanted to start trying for a family last month, but since we are both out of work, we had to postpone our plans) and we are living with my parents until we find jobs and can afford to move. I’m kicking myself and just wishing I could go back in time and not move until at least one of us had a job offer.
The past 5 months haven’t been a total waste. We’ve been helping my parents renovate and fix up their house a LOT! If we hadn’t have been here, I don’t think a lot of the necessary projects would have gotten done. I just feel like our families are judging us by not having just a temporary job until a better one comes along. We’ve both been applying for jobs, but have been reluctant to apply to a temporary job since we are hopeful about getting one of the jobs we had applied for. But with each job, we apply, the closing date passes, maybe we get an interview (more often not), and then we get a rejection letter.
I’ve thought about going back to work at Wal-Mart (I used to work there). I am reluctant to go there because I was so depressed and hated it so much. I’m afraid that I’ll have to go back and then my depression and anxiety will just get worse.
It also feels like I’m the only one looking for jobs for the both of us. My husband doesn’t seem to care or he has just given up. I don’t want to just yell and tell him he needs to be looking for jobs too, since that won’t help the situation at all. I just wish he would be more proactive.
I’ve prayed so many novenas to St. Joseph, St. Jude, and St. Therese of Lisieux for their intercession, and so many Rosaries with no answered prayers. I almost feel like God is ignoring my prayers. I know He doesn’t ignore us, but that’s what it feels like. I feel like He’s angry with me or that I’ve disappointed Him in some way. I’ve prayed that He will let me know what His will for me is, but again, I haven’t heard a booming voice from heaven telling me exactly what He wants me to do.
I know there are people carrying bigger crosses than my husband and I right now, but I am just asking for prayers. Prayers for both of us to gain employment, prayers to strengthen our marriage, and prayers for my suicidal thoughts to end.
Thank you for reading this book. I hope I didn’t come across as whining. For some reason, it feel good to just type all of this out. God bless you all.
This is going to be a long post, so forgive me. I understand if this is too much to read and you don’t feel like reading anymore. Long story short, I am asking for prayers for my husband and I to gain employment.
Here’s the long story:
My husband and I moved to be closer to my family after he graduated from college. We’ve both been unemployed for 5 months now. We both have college degrees. I thought for sure there would be more jobs in our new area than in our old area, but that hasn’t been the case. I’m a practicing Catholic, but I’ve been so depressed and have been having thoughts of suicide. I know this is very selfish of me and I don’t know why I have these thoughts. I wish the bad thoughts would just leave me and I could be happy again.
There are practically no jobs for my husband here that are related to his degree. Any jobs that are related to his degree are in places he doesn’t want to live. We both agreed that we want to live near one of our families, so our future children would have grandma and grandpa around. Since we don’t know where his family will end up (they will be moving soon, but they don’t know where), we decided to plant roots with my family.
My husband and I have no children (we wanted to start trying for a family last month, but since we are both out of work, we had to postpone our plans) and we are living with my parents until we find jobs and can afford to move. I’m kicking myself and just wishing I could go back in time and not move until at least one of us had a job offer.
The past 5 months haven’t been a total waste. We’ve been helping my parents renovate and fix up their house a LOT! If we hadn’t have been here, I don’t think a lot of the necessary projects would have gotten done. I just feel like our families are judging us by not having just a temporary job until a better one comes along. We’ve both been applying for jobs, but have been reluctant to apply to a temporary job since we are hopeful about getting one of the jobs we had applied for. But with each job, we apply, the closing date passes, maybe we get an interview (more often not), and then we get a rejection letter.
I’ve thought about going back to work at Wal-Mart (I used to work there). I am reluctant to go there because I was so depressed and hated it so much. I’m afraid that I’ll have to go back and then my depression and anxiety will just get worse.
It also feels like I’m the only one looking for jobs for the both of us. My husband doesn’t seem to care or he has just given up. I don’t want to just yell and tell him he needs to be looking for jobs too, since that won’t help the situation at all. I just wish he would be more proactive.
I’ve prayed so many novenas to St. Joseph, St. Jude, and St. Therese of Lisieux for their intercession, and so many Rosaries with no answered prayers. I almost feel like God is ignoring my prayers. I know He doesn’t ignore us, but that’s what it feels like. I feel like He’s angry with me or that I’ve disappointed Him in some way. I’ve prayed that He will let me know what His will for me is, but again, I haven’t heard a booming voice from heaven telling me exactly what He wants me to do.
I know there are people carrying bigger crosses than my husband and I right now, but I am just asking for prayers. Prayers for both of us to gain employment, prayers to strengthen our marriage, and prayers for my suicidal thoughts to end.
Thank you for reading this book. I hope I didn’t come across as whining. For some reason, it feel good to just type all of this out. God bless you all.

