It is to defy belief that you want to be content to let your husband have total authority over you, but only until he doesn’t lord it over you quite heavily enough. Why are you conflicted? It is not as if he’s telling you one thing and the Church is telling you something else…no, that is actually happening in the case of your husband skipping Mass, but that doesn’t conflict you, you simply toss Mass out. You feel guilty about worshipping at home on your own, which no one has forbidden, but not for skipping Sunday Mass, which actually is obligatory. Do you see what is not making sense here?
*Husband isn’t Catholic. He doesn’t wish me to follow Catholic religion. He says very negative things about it. He & I were going to his own church(es) in the past & those weren’t very long in attendance since he found fault in all of them. He says he has no interest right now in going to his church which is the only true church-a bible believing church-since he can’t find one he likes or agrees with anymore. *
You are making it sound as if you only want to do the will of everyone but yourself on one hand, but on the other hand you want to do what you want to do, but also want to stick the responsibility onto some authority figure whom you think ought to be forcing you to do it.
*How else are you to live if you don’t have a parent or spouse to tell you what to do? my father still tells me what to do & I do it because he isn’t someone to disagree with. To keep the peace I have always done what people say. As far as my husband goes he did tell me what to wear etc years back but then stopped. At that time I wore dresses/skirts 24/7 & shunned all worldly things as best as I could. He did as well but somewhere along the line he stopped & then so did I because I thought I was to do so. After awhile I knew it was a mistake but he has his own opinions & I don’t pry because he’s going to do what he wants no matter what I say IF I said anything which I don’t. *
