Difficult to describe. I can say that it was overpowering. I was in my room praying about the book when suddenly I was overcome by a tremendous feeling deep within me. I have never forgotten it and it has kept me at the outer edges of mormonism for over 30 years. I will never deny that feeling. Nor will I ever claim it to be a âwarm fuzzyâ.
At that time, I considered it to be truth manifesting to me. And I also remember my lds baptism very well. It was also a tremendous feeling of the holy ghostâs pressence. And I can not deny that truth either.
To deny the holy ghost is a terrible sin in the lds faith and I will never hopefully commit that sin even if I were to commit myself totally to the catholic faith.
Thank you for sharing your personal experience with me. In my desire to know more, i suppose i could pry, but this might be rude. I think instead i will offer a few quotes by those who say they had encounters with God. Please let me know if any of these experiences are similar to your own:
(A) The Holy Spirit had continually shown me that my real welfare for time and eternity depended upon the surrender of my life to the services of God. After a long controversy I made this submission, cast myself on His mercy, received the assurance of His pardon, and gave myself up to His service with all my heart. The hour, the place, and many other particulars of this glorious transaction are recorded indelibly on my memory.
(B) My soul is filled with joy unspeakable. I seem to swim in a flood of glory, which God pours down on me.
(C) No words can express the wonderful love that was shed abroad in my heart. I wept aloud with joy and love; and I do not know but I should say, I literally bellowed out the unutterable gushings of my heart. The waves came over me, and over me, one after the other, until I recollect I cried out, âI shall die if these waves continue to pass over me.â I said, âLord, I cannot bear anymoreâ; yet I had no fear of death.
(D) After I had retired to the place where I had previously designed to go, having looked around me, and finding myself alone, I kneeled down and began to offer up the desires of my heart to God. I had scarcely done so, when immediately I was seized upon by some power which entirely overcame me, and had such an astonishing influence over me as to bind my tongue so that I could not speak.
(E) About a quarter before nine, while he was describing the change God works in the heart through faith in Christ, I felt my heart strangely warmed. I felt I did trust in Christ alone for salvation; and an assurance was given me that He had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.
(F) In the morning, I felt my soul hungering and thirsting after righteousness. In the forenoon, while I was looking ohn the sacred elements, and thinking the Jesus Christ would soon be âset forth crucified before me,â my soul was filled with light and love, so that I was almost in ecstasy. My body was so weak I could hardly stand. I felt at the same time an exceeding tenderness, and most fervent love towards all mandkind; so that my soul, and all the powers it seemed, as it were, to melt into softness and sweetness. This love and joy cast out fear, and my soul longed for perfect grace and glory.
(G) And as my faithful testimony both to their life and doctrine, I declare, and be it known to all that ever knew me, that when the unspeakable riches of Godâs love visited me, by the call of His glorious light, from the dark practices, wandering notions, and vain conversation of this polluted world, and that my heart was influenced thereby, and consequently disposed for the more intimate and sincere receptions of it; those very habits which I once judged impossible, whilst here, to have relinquished, and did allow myself a liberty therein, because not openly gross or scandalous, became not only burdensome, and by the light were manifested to be of another nature than that which I was called to participation of; but in my faithful adherence to its holy counsel and instructions, I was immediately endued with power that gave dominion over them.
(H) O, how great has been the mercy of God towards me! How often, when I was almost overcome, has He been my deliverer! Sometimes my Passions assail me as a whirlwind; but God sent forth His arrows and dissipated them. The attack was often renewed, but God was still my support. By degrees I was weaned from everything earthly, and adhered to God alone. Then, I experienced how sweet, how full of mercy God is to those who truly love Him. O my God! How merciful has Thou been to me!