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"JohnWilliams:
It hurts me to the bone when I sin and I can feel it pull me away from that relationship.

I know how you feel.
JohnWilliams:
Thus I sin less and less as that relationship continues.
That’s great. But how do you know that you have been absolved of your past sins. Is there still this “pulling feeling”
sometimes from things you have done before? I only ask for you to answer to yourself and not to me here in this forum, unless you want to.
Can you pray directly to Jesus and ask Him to forgive you of your sins and get absolution?
Of course.

That is what happens when I am in Confession. The priest is just there standing in persona Christi. But I understand your question. Yes, I pray to Jesus and beg for His mercy and forgiveness when I sin.

I even cry sometimes. But then I go as soon as I possibly can to Confession. That is the only way that I can be absolved and know for sure that I have that absolution for my sins is if I confess them to Jesus in the Sacrament of Confession. Only a Catholic priest can forgive sins and give absolution as Jesus Christ gave that authority to Priests when He showed Himself to all the disciples after His resurrection.
13 Jesus stretched out his hand, touched him, and
said,
“I do will it. Be made clean.” And the leprosy
left him immediately.
14 Then he ordered him not to tell anyone, but “Go,
show yourself to the priest and offer for
your cleansing what Moses prescribed; that will
be proof for them.”
Luke 5:13-14
9 Which is easier, to say to the paralytic,
‘Your
sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Rise, pick up your
mat and walk’?
10 But that you may know that the
Son of Man
has authority to forgive sins on earth"–
11 he said to the paralytic, “I say to you, rise,
pick up your mat, and go home.”
Mk 2:9-11
19 On the evening of that first day of the week,
when the doors were locked, where the disciples
were, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood
in their midst and said to them, “Peace be with you.”
20 When he had said this, he showed them his hands
and his side. The disciples rejoiced when they saw
the Lord.
21 (Jesus) said to them again, “Peace be with you.
As the Father has sent me, so I send you.”
22 And when he had said this, he breathed on them
and said to them, “Receive the holy Spirit.
23
Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and
whose sins you retain are retained.”
John 20:19-23
In Persona Christi
By virtue of sacramental consecration, the ordained priest
does not simply become a functionary. This consecration
does not set him apart to simply perform certain tasks in the
Church. No, by virtue of the sacramental consecration which
the priest receives, he is ontologically changed. He is
configured to the Person of Jesus Christ, Head and Shepherd,
in a new way in his very being. “The relation of the priest to
Jesus Christ, and in him to his Church, is found in the very
being of the priest by virtue of his sacramental
consecration/anointing and in his activity, that is, in his
mission and ministry.” Just as at Baptism and Confirmation
the Christian is sacramentally marked on the soul, so is the
man who is ordained a priest marked sacramentally and
configured to Christ the Priest.