Can someone knowledgeable please explain why it’s called “Compunction”?
I asked this question of an Orthodox lecturer some years back - “What is compunction and how is it attained?” and he fired back at me: “What? Do I look like a monastic? Do you think I am a desert father?” And he fumbled about for 3-4 minutes and failed to come up with an answer… When he came through a year later, he thanked me for the question, saying it saved him further embarrassment 2 weeks later when some nuns he was lecturing asked the same question, and by then he had researched an answer for them…
So I told him about the way I had gotten my answer, how an Orthodox Monk had recorded morning prayers and the prayers of preparation for Holy Communion on a CD, and the monk with whom I was posting noted casually how he prayed with great compunction… Now, I had been using this CD for my prep-prayers on my car’s CD player while traveling to various monasteries and Churches for Communion Services enroute, and I had not noticed all that much about them that I would see as “compunction”, so I dove in and listened again and still did not “get” what he meant… “Where was this “compunction” in this mere reading of the prayers?” I asked…
So I decided to imitate his voice, to sound just like him, as I prayed aloud after hearing a line of his prayer on the CD, and voila! Because in order to sound like him, I had to constrict my throat and raise the pitch of my voice - I had to make me small…
And then, finally, I looked at the word itself - com- plus -punction… We all know what a puncture is, and we all know what com- means… And it all opened up - “with-puncture” is clear enough, given the results of puncturing things that rely on air pressure to maintain their rigidity - Life rafts and balloons come immediately to mind, along with tires…
So it means making one’s self small by releasing one’s bloated self image…
It is the gateway to humility for a bloated ego…
Attained by the pricking of one’s self-conceit…
I mean, NO WONDER I couldn’t hear it in his voice!!
Were it a drug, compunction would be known as the reality pill…
“For Behold! - He hath regarded the lowliness of His hand-maiden…
For Behold! - From henceforth all generations shall call me Blessed!”
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