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Liberty_Belle
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I grew up in a secular household - in that, I mean I went to Jewish sunday school because my grandparents required it, and resented it all the way. My parents are irreligious and felt it to be just as much of an imposition as we did - there was no religious practice at home. My parents had intermarried and so there had never been a consistent religious tradition in my household - if not for my grandparents’ insistence on Sunday school I do not think I would have been exposed to religion at all.
By the time I reached the age where I was meant to prepare for my bat mitzvah I could not bring myself to do it, for I had decided that I no longer believed at all as the Jewish religion never spoke to me whatsoever and I felt that to go through with it would be to parrot something I did not believe in to receive gifts from people. I remember telling my parents that I could not take people’s money/gifts as it would be like lying if I were to profess my belief in such a ceremony when I did not believe.
Fast forward several years, and my life had become quite a mess. I had psychiatric problems, and these were exacerbated by severe bullying as well as a seriously abusive boyfriend and the consequences of that. I was lost, suicidal and depressed. I self-harmed, had few friends, and whole periods of my life had been blanked out as a result of the trauma I’d experienced. To this day there are years of my life I barely remember.
I finished school, and enrolled at university. This was three years ago.
During my first week there, the Catholic group on campus were handing out Bible verses to all those who walked in the gates. Goodness knows why I felt an impulse to take one, as I had never previously felt any urge towards religion or spirituality of any kind. The verse was Sirach 17:19 - “The Lord encourages those who are losing hope!” To this day, it is still my favourite verse in the Bible.
This hit me like a lightning bolt. I knew in that instant that God was real and that Catholicism is where I would be led. I felt an inner calm and warmth that I had never before experienced - like a comforting embrace that soothed my soul.
I honestly still believe this was Divine intervention.
I do not know what path my life would have taken if this had not occurred. I continue to be haunted by what happened to me when I was younger - I have not elaborated, but suffice to say I have seen grown people in tears upon recounting it.
I am about to commence my RCIA and I am proud to say I will also be getting married in the Church to the most wonderful human being I have ever met. Despite my trials, the Lord has blessed me.
By the time I reached the age where I was meant to prepare for my bat mitzvah I could not bring myself to do it, for I had decided that I no longer believed at all as the Jewish religion never spoke to me whatsoever and I felt that to go through with it would be to parrot something I did not believe in to receive gifts from people. I remember telling my parents that I could not take people’s money/gifts as it would be like lying if I were to profess my belief in such a ceremony when I did not believe.
Fast forward several years, and my life had become quite a mess. I had psychiatric problems, and these were exacerbated by severe bullying as well as a seriously abusive boyfriend and the consequences of that. I was lost, suicidal and depressed. I self-harmed, had few friends, and whole periods of my life had been blanked out as a result of the trauma I’d experienced. To this day there are years of my life I barely remember.
I finished school, and enrolled at university. This was three years ago.
During my first week there, the Catholic group on campus were handing out Bible verses to all those who walked in the gates. Goodness knows why I felt an impulse to take one, as I had never previously felt any urge towards religion or spirituality of any kind. The verse was Sirach 17:19 - “The Lord encourages those who are losing hope!” To this day, it is still my favourite verse in the Bible.
This hit me like a lightning bolt. I knew in that instant that God was real and that Catholicism is where I would be led. I felt an inner calm and warmth that I had never before experienced - like a comforting embrace that soothed my soul.
I honestly still believe this was Divine intervention.
I do not know what path my life would have taken if this had not occurred. I continue to be haunted by what happened to me when I was younger - I have not elaborated, but suffice to say I have seen grown people in tears upon recounting it.
I am about to commence my RCIA and I am proud to say I will also be getting married in the Church to the most wonderful human being I have ever met. Despite my trials, the Lord has blessed me.