Scruples Acting Up Again

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I have scrupulosity and have for about 4 or 5 months but have suffered from OCD pretty much my whole life. Recently I seemed to have it under control. I was aware I had it and was able to tell myself ‘no’ sometimes and stop the thoughts from flooding my mind.

Just tonight however I had a bad spell. As I was reading the bible, all these horrible thoughts kept rushing to mind. My mind would ask questions or think of scenarios that seemed to try and disprove that Jesus is God. I felt horrible and begged The Lord to forgive me of thinking such thoughts. I know I believe Jesus is the Son of God but just the fact that such horrible thoughts came to mind disturbed me. I know God understands my intensions and that these thoughts are intrusive and it’s not like I believe any of them because I reject them as soon as I think of them. I know that just the fact that I’m praying for forgiveness is because I do believe in Christ and don’t want to offend Him. But it just seriously hurt faith and made my Scruples start acting up again.

Please pray for me.

And sorry for all the extra information. It just makes me feel better to write it all out and to let other people know. I also know that I need a spiritual director but being that I’m 16 it’s not as easy as it would be for an adult. I hope to find help for this horrible disorder soon. God bless!
 
Hi Parker,

Welcome to the forums.

I am so sorry that you are struggling with OCD. Anxiety and depression can be found in my family. My Dad struggled with OCD, too.

God Bless You as you deal with this, too. Hang in there.

I will say some prayers for you.
 
O Lord,
we ask for a boundless confidence
and trust in Your divine mercy,
and the courage to accept the crosses and sufferings
which bring immense goodness
to our souls and that of Your Church.
Help us to love You
with a pure and contrite heart,
and to humble ourselves beneath Your cross,
as we climb the mountain of holiness,
carrying our cross that leads to heavenly glory. May we receive You
with great faith and love in Holy Communion, and allow You to act in us as You desire for your greater glory. O Jesus, most adorable Heart and eternal fountain of Divine Love, may our prayer find favor before the Divine Majesty of Your heavenly Father. Amen.
 
Praying for you. I know firsthand how difficult this situation can be. Ask an adult to help you approach a priest or call the rectory for an appointment. If you reject these thoughts you are not sinning. Medical help and medication can help.
 
**Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning,
is now,
and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen.**
 
I am truly sorry for what you are going through. Not that this makes it any easier to have yourself, but my father and I both have OCD and other problems as well so I can see where you’re coming from. As you said, it’s good to remember that thoughts and temptations are not sins in themselves. God does not blame us for things we do not chose. Only if we give in to them and truly desire them are they sinful, and with your strong rejection and resistance towards them that does not appear to be the case. I would also counsel, personally of my own opinion, to be cautious about considering OCD and scrupulosity to be the same thing. Scrupulosity is a spiritual disorder that is by choice, where we do not believe God will or can forgive us for various possible reasons. OCD is a mental disorder that is involuntary and that must be treated with medicine and therapy. So, while it would certainly be good to find a spiritual director, I would also advice seeing a good psychotherapist to help with your OCD. As you said talking about it can be very helpful, and doing so with a professional privately is even better.

I offer all my prayers for you my friend and I truly hope that you may be fully healed of all your problems, particularly your OCD, and that you may be forgiven all your sins and protected and healed from all problems, and granted the courage and hope to suffer all your problems for the salvation of the world. I extend these prayers to all those in the world with OCD. I ask for the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary, your guardian angel, and St. Dymphna, patron saint against mental illness. God bless. 🙂
Code: 
Hail Holy Queen

Mother of Mercy, Our Life, Our Sweetness and Our Hope

To Thee Do We Cry, Poor Banished Children of Eve

To Thee Do We Send Up Our Sighs

Mourning and Weeping in this Valley of Tears.

Turn, then, Most Gracious Advocate

Thine Eyes of Mercy Towards Us

And After This, Our Exile, Show Unto Us

The Blessed Fruit of Thy Womb,

Jesus. 

O Clement, O Loving, O Sweet 

Virgin Mary. 

Amen.
 
Praying that the Lord may grant you relief from scrupulous thoughts. Also praying that He may strengthen you with all necessary graces.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen
 
Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

†

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†
 
JMJ_Telcontar said:
Praying that the Lord may grant you relief from scrupulous thoughts. Also praying that He may strengthen you with all necessary graces.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen
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Amen. :gopray:
 
Parker_James said:
I have scrupulosity and have for about 4 or 5 months but have suffered from OCD pretty much my whole life. Recently I seemed to have it under control. I was aware I had it and was able to tell myself ‘no’ sometimes and stop the thoughts from flooding my mind.

Just tonight however I had a bad spell. As I was reading the bible, all these horrible thoughts kept rushing to mind. My mind would ask questions or think of scenarios that seemed to try and disprove that Jesus is God. I felt horrible and begged The Lord to forgive me of thinking such thoughts. I know I believe Jesus is the Son of God but just the fact that such horrible thoughts came to mind disturbed me. I know God understands my intensions and that these thoughts are intrusive and it’s not like I believe any of them because I reject them as soon as I think of them. I know that just the fact that I’m praying for forgiveness is because I do believe in Christ and don’t want to offend Him. But it just seriously hurt faith and made my Scruples start acting up again.
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Please pray for me.

And sorry for all the extra information. It just makes me feel better to write it all out and to let other people know. I also know that I need a spiritual director but being that I’m 16 it’s not as easy as it would be for an adult. I hope to find help for this horrible disorder soon. God bless!
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Praying for you.
 
From the blog Roman Catholic Spiritual Direction-

"Tactical Resistance

When evil thoughts knock at the door of your mind, refuse to let them in. You may not be able to keep them from knocking, but by saying a short prayer (“Lord Jesus, have mercy on me… Lord Jesus, I love you… Sacred Heart of Jesus, I trust in you…”) or praying a favorite line of Scripture (“Let it be done to me according to your word” [Luke 1:38], “Trust in Him at all times” [Psalm 62:8], “The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear?” [Psalm 27:1]), you may be able to resist letting them in. If they continue to clamor, continue to resist them: make a visit to the Blessed Sacrament; go to confession; open your Bible and read the Word for fifteen minutes; do a work of mercy for someone; refocus on the task at hand…

Taking Captives

St. Paul explains that he “takes every thought captive to make it obedient to Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5). When God permits us to be barraged by evil thoughts, we can follow St. Paul’s example. Even if we feel ourselves weak, we can still put up some resistance, which will eventually repel the spiritual attack: “Resist the devil, and he will flee from you” (James 4:7). And if our resistance takes the form of turning our thoughts to God, not just gritting our teeth and trying to exert massive self-control, then God will surely come to our rescue if we persevere: “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you” (James 4:8). Sometimes the battle rages for long periods; God permits that in order to help us grow in virtue, self-knowledge, humility, and wisdom."

It goes on to say in the comments that going to confession with a priest, or finding a spiritual director can greatly help scruples or intruding thoughts. If you cannot find a spiritual director, you can always go to confession. Find one priest and consistently confess to him. Follow his advice with inner peace, and use that advice to quell any scruples by telling yourself you are being obedient. Check out this blog- it looks very helpful! Praying for you!
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.
 
Thank you all! This morning I prayed to Christ about my worries and through his mercy and love I was able to be back to my good old normal self before I went to school :). I know y’all’s prayers were a big help and helping me stay strong throughout the day! God bless!
 
I will pray for you, Parker James. I know the pain of scruples / OCD myself – as lots of people do here on the site. You’re wise to know the importance of a spiritual director – I will pray that you find one. Feel free to contact me privately if you ever want to dialogue.

God bless.
 
Parker_James said:
I have scrupulosity and have for about 4 or 5 months but have suffered from OCD pretty much my whole life. Recently I seemed to have it under control. I was aware I had it and was able to tell myself ‘no’ sometimes and stop the thoughts from flooding my mind.

Just tonight however I had a bad spell. As I was reading the bible, all these horrible thoughts kept rushing to mind. My mind would ask questions or think of scenarios that seemed to try and disprove that Jesus is God. I felt horrible and begged The Lord to forgive me of thinking such thoughts. I know I believe Jesus is the Son of God but just the fact that such horrible thoughts came to mind disturbed me. I know God understands my intensions and that these thoughts are intrusive and it’s not like I believe any of them because I reject them as soon as I think of them. I know that just the fact that I’m praying for forgiveness is because I do believe in Christ and don’t want to offend Him. But it just seriously hurt faith and made my Scruples start acting up again.

Please pray for me.

And sorry for all the extra information. It just makes me feel better to write it all out and to let other people know. I also know that I need a spiritual director but being that I’m 16 it’s not as easy as it would be for an adult. I hope to find help for this horrible disorder soon. God bless!
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Our Father,
Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.
Amen.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning,
is now,
and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen.
 
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