Each of us, by virtue of the Sacraments has certain specific gifts, or charisms. For whatever reason, have never opened their gifts. They have simply set them on a high shelf in the closet, afraid to open them. Perhaps, receiving the Sacraments was merely a matter of cultural ritual. We see our prayer life as a checklist, a matter of Catholic “shoulds and should nots.” Did I pray my rosary today? Did I spend so many minutes praying these specific prayers? Instead of looking at how can I spend time with the One love. That doesn’t mean not scheduling time for prayer. I still remember Sister in first grade telling us to put our shoes under our bed, which we did any way. Since they were there, we were already on our knees ready for morning prayer.
When you were a little a child, did you think about waking up and kissing her mother, or hugging her? That is how we need to think about prayer. That as something to check off a list, but as a desire. I want to spend time in prayer. God does respond to this desire. It doesn’t mean that I am somehow more special or more holy than a person who not hear or feel an immediate response from God.
Mother Teresa didn’t feel that response. Bishop Curlin of the Charlotte Diocese, who recently died, told her to think about prayer as incense. Incense rises. Not getting a response or sense of intimacy, a “warm fuzzy feeling” does not mean that your prayer is any less effective than my prayer.
It is the same as evangelization. I speak to different people over the course of time. One is meant to sow seeds, another to water, and still another to bring in the harvest. Not one person has said, “Okay, I’m going to join the Catholic Church because of what you just said.” Actually I would be a bit skeptical if they did. I see myself more at the beginning of the process. I have been humbled when individuals have come to me, and asked for prayer. We are called to witness whether convenient or not, even in the marketplace surrounded by nonbelievers.