Sure, this is why I stumbled around homeless for six months and raided trashcans of fast food restaurants for food. I had to shift around several cities until I found a homeless shelter willing to let me just spend the night, I was not allowed in about a dozen of them before that, they didn’t want me using either bathroom, so asked me to try another shelter, and so did the next once…rinse and repeat.
Pathia, by your own admission, your case is pretty unique.
However, every social grouping has some kind of rules. It doesn’t matter what the group is. If you don’t follow the rules, you are on your own.
If you join up with a bureaucracy, you have to do the paperwork or suffer through paperwork or in some cases get a case worker to fill out the paperwork.
If you go to a soup kitchen, you need to line up with the other patrons. And no fighting.
Normally, families are supportive. But you have stated that you are disowned by your family. And you say you have pulled away from the Catholic church.
I know people who have been thrown out of nursing homes; they were punching out the other residents and they refused medication to calm them down. Their relatives had to come for them and they gave their relatives a hard time (urinated in their cars). The only other alternative was what? Being arrested and taken to jail? There was a case in NYC about a homeless man who assaulted passersby. Turned out he had a large government pension and an apartment and wasn’t really homeless because he had an apartment and his family couldn’t do any thing with him.
So, Pathia, others have stated it and your medical story is tragic and at one level requires a lot of medical attention and at the chromosomal level is not treatable or curable. It’s obvious that we don’t have all the details. Social welfare agencies are available to help, but you have to cooperate with their requirements. I know of one large agency that will help, but you have to cooperate.
If you do move to the Netherlands, just keep in mind that they have their own rules. You many not know what the rules are yet. And most of Europe is rapidly become an Islamic state under Sharia Law.
What does someone in your position do? Pray a lot. Seriously. Deliberately tell Jesus you are putting your self in His Hands. Ask the Holy Spirit for direction and guidance. Say a daily Rosary. Pray for others; right this minute there are people who are in far worse situations than you are. [There are a lot of people on CAF who are concerned about your situation and who are praying for you.] Consider going to Confession and just telling the priest you want to be Catholic again. Get to weekly or daily Mass and Holy Communion.
An old pastor of mine used to say “God will provide”. Sounded simplistic at the time, but he was right: God does provide.