romeishome:
I am so sorry that you feel as though there are all of these adults that are trying to guide you, but maybe you should listen a bit…because I assure you at 16 you do not have it all figured out! I really am praying that God continue to bless you and that if He is calling you that He would make a way for you to be the best priest you can be!
Now, for the secret stuff…this is a terrible concern for me!
Just for the simple fact, people that have a preoccupation with secrets, or keeping things secret, ect put themselves in a posititon where they are held in suspicion constantly. No, I am not saying that it is wrong to have private thing between you and God, or between you and your family, or between you and a friend…but what I am saying is creating a “code” to write about God, so that you can keep those thoughts secret is a little disturbing and even quite suspicious! Considering your past religious experience and all.
One would have to question why? Why do you want to conceal it? Why wouldn’t you want everyone to know what you feel about God???
It is your natural inclination to make it unreadable??? Why is this? This sounds like this inclination could be a sign from your past religious life of occultic secrecy and conjuration that you are still holding on to some of that.
I just can’t see why you would want to encode this journal if all that is going to be in it is the greatness, and power of God??? It does not make sense, it seems as though there is another motive.
Silverwings, I just don’t buy it! I don’t believe that the only reason you want to encode your journal is because you are greedy? Encoding writing seems very suspicious, and the roots for wanting to do so seem very diabolical! If you want to keep your thoughts private…that is fine…put’em on a computer that password protected…lock your writings away…but encoding with different languages and the such…given your background seems a little suspicious, and the person that has a preoccupation with secrets is going to naturally be put in a light of suspicion.
Here is some food for thought:
The apostles wrote things about God…and alot of what they wrote made it into the scripture, for our benefit! What if they would have had this same preoccupation with secrets as well, and wanted to encode their writings? If you have a talent for writing use it…if you have a talent for language use it…but I am just suspicious of encoded languages…sounds too much like the occult.
God Bless those are my thoughts!
Cody
Again, I feel misunderstood, lol. Okay, first of all, I said I was giving up the charade of using such means of veiling communication, please read carefully!.. the above was written on how I feel, not what I want to do!
I mean, look at other people who write diaries. They want to hide it from other people, because it is something personal. I myself hate to share my poetry because it is personal. When it comes from the heart, one is afraid that it might be abused. That’s what I’m afraid.
BECAUSE it is private matter, as most journals/diaries are, that is the reason why I want to conceal it. That is it a natural inclination SINCE it is on a private matter. It is not my normal habit to conceal things. I said above that I was giving up the charade on an alphabet, and I’m done with it.
BUT the languages are a different matter, because I want to practice them, not for veiling. A language should be spoken, written, listened to, and understood by all these things. How else to hone a skill? It has nothing to do with concealing at all!
I feel hurt because of this misunderstanding, that I am trying to hide some occultic secret from everyone.
I told you that I’m done with it! All I really want to do is write about God, and that’s it.
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wipes tears Anyways, I hope this clarifies things.
