Hi again,
Sorry - it took me a while to come back after that disaster and then it took me a while to find this thread. I did clear my inbox - thank you for all the PMs.
I was a little put off by how that last thread ended. My last few posts to it got no responses st all and then people just started having personal fights!
Since then I have spoken to my priest and advocate and I am going to reapply for an annulment. I will just keep doing this until it goes through. Something has to work.
In the meantime, I am not going to leave my marriage or push my husband out by telling him our marriage is canceled. I just can’t do that to my girls. I’ve told my husband that I can’t initiate intimacy but I won’t push him away either. I can’t do that. If I were to totally cut off my husband and tell him we are not married he might be so insulted that he’d leave. Then I would have to get an attorney and so would he, go through a divorce and I’d be a single mom. I’d have to go back to work and put my babies in daycare. They would be shuttled between homes. My husband may remarry. I honestly cannot in good conscience do that. My husband is a wonderful man, so loving and such a great father. I hope God understands my choices, but if He doesn’t, I’ll accept responsibility for where I end up.
In the meantime, there is a new Greek Orthodox church in town. They are very similar to Catholics and I am going to check them out. Maybe I would not wear the scarlet A there!
Thanks for all your prayers and help!