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When you get right down to it, all I am is a choice that I must continually make: to move closer or farther from God. Though I spend my life forming my personhood through learning, experience, and suffering, none of that really matters except insofar as it informs my choice.
I have wants and desires, ambitions, dreams, and plans, but these are all one of two types. Either they are of myself, and must be discouraged, denied, and purged if possible, or they are natural, healthy desires which are healthy because all of them have a desire to be with God as their ultimate end. When I die and (hopefully go through purgatory), all selfish desires will be removed from me. All natural desires will be fulfilled in that I will have reached the end of all of them:union with God.
I have relationships with people whom I care deeply about. Supposing we all make it to heaven, my relationships with these people will be perfected and elevated to a level of love I have never experienced in life. I will love everyone equally and they will love me, based solely on the fact that we all chose to be with God. What other reason would you have? What trace of personality could remain when one is fully submerged in God’s divine glory? What could I appreciate about anyone, or what could I possibly exchange with them other than a mutual joy that we are both there? I don’t think saints talk to each other. I think they spend all of their time giving glory to God.
I have no goodness in me aside from the goodness of God that I may reflect, however dimly, as a dirty mirror might reflect the tiniest fraction of the light of the sun. There is literally not one iota of goodness that I can contribute to the world that does not come from God, save from what I indirectly contribute through by participating in his plan for me by choosing to move closer to him.
In effect, the purpose for which I have been made is either to serve as a brilliant mirror, possessing no light of my own, but eternally reflecting the glory of God, or to choose to cling to the bits of dirt that cover my soul, and remain in eternal darkness.
So here are my questions in no particular order: why should I bother to continue forming my personality (through hard work, suffering, and enjoying life) now when it will be utterly destroyed later? Why should I bother maintaining relationships now when in the end, I will love everyone perfectly equally? Why shouldn’t I abandon my greatest hope, to fall in love with a woman, get married, and have a child, when my relationships with my family will cease to have any particular significance to me in heaven? The best answer I have to any of these is to reduce my time in purgatory. Is that it?
What is the point of any of this existence? You can say “I” may experience eternal joy, but whatever “I” am will be completely erased. All that will exist of me is a feeling, a state of being that is achievable on earth through substances, and which is objectively a step down from the dignity of being a person.
I have wants and desires, ambitions, dreams, and plans, but these are all one of two types. Either they are of myself, and must be discouraged, denied, and purged if possible, or they are natural, healthy desires which are healthy because all of them have a desire to be with God as their ultimate end. When I die and (hopefully go through purgatory), all selfish desires will be removed from me. All natural desires will be fulfilled in that I will have reached the end of all of them:union with God.
I have relationships with people whom I care deeply about. Supposing we all make it to heaven, my relationships with these people will be perfected and elevated to a level of love I have never experienced in life. I will love everyone equally and they will love me, based solely on the fact that we all chose to be with God. What other reason would you have? What trace of personality could remain when one is fully submerged in God’s divine glory? What could I appreciate about anyone, or what could I possibly exchange with them other than a mutual joy that we are both there? I don’t think saints talk to each other. I think they spend all of their time giving glory to God.
I have no goodness in me aside from the goodness of God that I may reflect, however dimly, as a dirty mirror might reflect the tiniest fraction of the light of the sun. There is literally not one iota of goodness that I can contribute to the world that does not come from God, save from what I indirectly contribute through by participating in his plan for me by choosing to move closer to him.
In effect, the purpose for which I have been made is either to serve as a brilliant mirror, possessing no light of my own, but eternally reflecting the glory of God, or to choose to cling to the bits of dirt that cover my soul, and remain in eternal darkness.
So here are my questions in no particular order: why should I bother to continue forming my personality (through hard work, suffering, and enjoying life) now when it will be utterly destroyed later? Why should I bother maintaining relationships now when in the end, I will love everyone perfectly equally? Why shouldn’t I abandon my greatest hope, to fall in love with a woman, get married, and have a child, when my relationships with my family will cease to have any particular significance to me in heaven? The best answer I have to any of these is to reduce my time in purgatory. Is that it?
What is the point of any of this existence? You can say “I” may experience eternal joy, but whatever “I” am will be completely erased. All that will exist of me is a feeling, a state of being that is achievable on earth through substances, and which is objectively a step down from the dignity of being a person.