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lovedance4ever
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I have been crying all evening. For the past ten years, I have been experiencing excruciating pain in my feet; it’s pain that I cannot even begin to describe, and it has only gotten worse over the years. I have been to doctor after doctor and no one can tell me what is wrong. Recently, it was explained to me that I simply have chronic pain, and I might have to live with it for the rest of my life. I am a ninteen year old girl, and quite frankly, that is a terrifying prospect.
I used to be a fit ballet dancer, but when the pain started, I was forced to quit my passion and as a result of inactivity, I gained a ton of weight. However, last year, I decided that I needed to do something about my health, and began working out. In six months, I lost sixty pounds, forcing myself to work through the pain.
I recently ordered Shaun T’s Insanity Workout. I am eight days in, and the pain in my feet is back with a vengeance. It has begun to radiate from my feet to my calves. I realize that when you exercise you are supposed to “feel the burn,” but this goes way beyond ordinary pain that one gets from exertion.
I am desperate to lose more weight, but the pain is so bad I can barely walk right now. Everything feels inflamed. I already hate almost everything about myself; I do not attract men, because nowadays, it seems that they are only attracted to the skinny Hollywood image. I am not obese, but I am chunky and still need to take off some weight. So that can be a downer when I let myself think about it. But while that is an issue for me, nothing bothers me more than the fact that I might not be able to do what is required of me in my future career. I am going into law enforcement, and need to be in tip top physical condition. But if I cannot run…what on earth am I going to do? Family and friends try to tell me to “just go into a different area of criminal justice” and “do something that requires less physical exertion.”
No. I have never seen myself doing anything else, nor do I love anything as much as I do criminal justice. My mind is set, I just need prayer to get to my goal. Sometimes I feel as if God does not hear me…and that he doesn’t care about me. It sure seems like that sometimes. I do not want money, or fame, or anything like that…I just want my pain to not be so severe anymore. For once, I would like to get through a workout without feeling nauseous, and as if I am going to pass out from the constant burning in my feet.
Please remember me in your prayers if you can. This week has been a constant struggle for me, and I do not know how much more I can take. If you have any advice, I’d greatly appreciate it. But prayers are more important to me than anything else.
Thank you for listening.
I used to be a fit ballet dancer, but when the pain started, I was forced to quit my passion and as a result of inactivity, I gained a ton of weight. However, last year, I decided that I needed to do something about my health, and began working out. In six months, I lost sixty pounds, forcing myself to work through the pain.
I recently ordered Shaun T’s Insanity Workout. I am eight days in, and the pain in my feet is back with a vengeance. It has begun to radiate from my feet to my calves. I realize that when you exercise you are supposed to “feel the burn,” but this goes way beyond ordinary pain that one gets from exertion.
I am desperate to lose more weight, but the pain is so bad I can barely walk right now. Everything feels inflamed. I already hate almost everything about myself; I do not attract men, because nowadays, it seems that they are only attracted to the skinny Hollywood image. I am not obese, but I am chunky and still need to take off some weight. So that can be a downer when I let myself think about it. But while that is an issue for me, nothing bothers me more than the fact that I might not be able to do what is required of me in my future career. I am going into law enforcement, and need to be in tip top physical condition. But if I cannot run…what on earth am I going to do? Family and friends try to tell me to “just go into a different area of criminal justice” and “do something that requires less physical exertion.”
No. I have never seen myself doing anything else, nor do I love anything as much as I do criminal justice. My mind is set, I just need prayer to get to my goal. Sometimes I feel as if God does not hear me…and that he doesn’t care about me. It sure seems like that sometimes. I do not want money, or fame, or anything like that…I just want my pain to not be so severe anymore. For once, I would like to get through a workout without feeling nauseous, and as if I am going to pass out from the constant burning in my feet.
Please remember me in your prayers if you can. This week has been a constant struggle for me, and I do not know how much more I can take. If you have any advice, I’d greatly appreciate it. But prayers are more important to me than anything else.
Thank you for listening.
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