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MaeganFlinchum1
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Heres my 2nd request for this:
I am just completely slacking as far as Church. I have OCD/Scrupulosity amd it makes it an incredibly long (were talking hours here) to examine my concious before Confession. Even if i have already most days of the week. Its awful. And then I get lazy and just dont want to do it. And then i cant go. Then no Eucharist…i hate this cycle. Why in the world cant i just be a normal Catholic!?! And not so crazy!!!
Then my self injury is getting worse…and more worse. And depresion sucks. But then i wonder if i am even really depressed. Or am just lazy…but then why would i be self injuring?? And i know i do have something to be sad about…
Its just a huge mess. And i havent been to Confession in 2 weeks…andn am probably not going tonigh (I know FOR SURE that im in sin…)
I just dont feel like i will stop self injuring. (A sin right?) Im thinking about tellling my mom…so there is no point…and im mad at someone and have this lack of forgiveness …its stupid i know.
So now i sit here. Please please pray for me. And if you read this thanks!! Lke seriously, i need to be prayed for. Really bad. (By the way. I went to adoration last night for the first time. I loved it!! There weee only 7 other women there (i felt young haha) and we prayed the Rosary and sung in latin!!! It was awesome!!)D
I am just completely slacking as far as Church. I have OCD/Scrupulosity amd it makes it an incredibly long (were talking hours here) to examine my concious before Confession. Even if i have already most days of the week. Its awful. And then I get lazy and just dont want to do it. And then i cant go. Then no Eucharist…i hate this cycle. Why in the world cant i just be a normal Catholic!?! And not so crazy!!!
Then my self injury is getting worse…and more worse. And depresion sucks. But then i wonder if i am even really depressed. Or am just lazy…but then why would i be self injuring?? And i know i do have something to be sad about…
Its just a huge mess. And i havent been to Confession in 2 weeks…andn am probably not going tonigh (I know FOR SURE that im in sin…)
I just dont feel like i will stop self injuring. (A sin right?) Im thinking about tellling my mom…so there is no point…and im mad at someone and have this lack of forgiveness …its stupid i know.
So now i sit here. Please please pray for me. And if you read this thanks!! Lke seriously, i need to be prayed for. Really bad. (By the way. I went to adoration last night for the first time. I loved it!! There weee only 7 other women there (i felt young haha) and we prayed the Rosary and sung in latin!!! It was awesome!!)D

