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lynnehelen
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He plans to be home again tonight. He is scaring me. I am counselling with Project Rachel; the counselor gave me Holy Water and a special crucifix yesterday, but I am falling into depression now that I am confronting the reality of the matters involved. The three big anniversaries, I suddenly realized today, are coming up: I had the abortion on the last day of the first trimester, which fell the day before our first wedding anniversary, which falls the day before July 4th, already always difficult for me as a British-American, more so when also hosting a Canadian national as my spouse.
I trust that it is by special grace that I have Maggie (my counselor) at this particular time of year–I never see it coming–but I am falling into depression after the negative but preoccupying excitement of all the problems for my son, hearings, court dates, phone calls, et cetera.
I have an appointment with my psychological counselor tomorrow, and hope that he can help.
I feel like I am losing the fight against the house, as the yard is overgrown and I am afraid of yard men but one will be here tomorrow morning, mosquitoes in the house, infected bites, my husband finally fixed the leaking kitchen sink but the mosquioes or gnats are outside the front door also so it could be standing water in the overgrown yard.
For solace. This is a very confusing time.
I trust that it is by special grace that I have Maggie (my counselor) at this particular time of year–I never see it coming–but I am falling into depression after the negative but preoccupying excitement of all the problems for my son, hearings, court dates, phone calls, et cetera.
I have an appointment with my psychological counselor tomorrow, and hope that he can help.
I feel like I am losing the fight against the house, as the yard is overgrown and I am afraid of yard men but one will be here tomorrow morning, mosquitoes in the house, infected bites, my husband finally fixed the leaking kitchen sink but the mosquioes or gnats are outside the front door also so it could be standing water in the overgrown yard.
For solace. This is a very confusing time.