Yes, I agree Monica. I think at this point it is irrelevant whether or not AP is real. The question is whether or not I trust in Jesus and willing to abandon any other belief in favor of him. Do I trust the catholic church is it, the truth? This has been the issue all along and I didn’t even see it.
that is what I felt also as I read your post. About AP itself (I really hesitate calling it that because the term is so new agey…) - I mean about the whole concept of a person leaving their body - I suggest just not even thinking about it. Ask God to give you a greater understanding, ask for wisdom. Look how much the Saints knew, and in their experiences it seems they stayed in their bodies, so you don’t need this to know anything. All we need to know for salvation was given to us already, - because God offers it to all, it doesn’t take visions and spiritual experiences to find it out, (although God can and does sometimes convert people with this, when in His wisdom He sees that’s what is needed) - it takes only hearing His truth. But I recommend just right now, to try and just forget about this whole AP idea, and only think of it if this would help you, for example if God gives you wisdom regarding it. But I wouldn’t seek any sort of experiences at all, just faith. Ask Him for faith… like how you said, are you willing to trust Jesus enough to abandon all else for Him. Look the new age… it’s all relativism. They don’t even believe they’ve got the objective truth. It’s all what seems good or true “to you”. But truth is not like that… it’s something we need to conform to. You might say, it’s hard as nails. It’s not something we can change just because we feel like believing something one day. Our faith is something that we stick to regardless of how we feel, because it is a choice

try to will this choice, simply by wanting to will it: then ask God to take you the rest of the way. Don’t do it on your own strength, we need grace for this. Try your best then ask for His help. Then keep going and keep asking for His help. Don’t stop and don’t look back, - like Lot’s wife… if we don’t go forward in our faith, we’ll start going backward. It might be hard at first cause you might have to battle more temptation. Be ready for this but don’t be afraid, but trust in God… and eventually, it would get better. No trials or temptations last forever! sometimes the enemy wants us to feel like we should give in cause the temptation would not ever end. That’s NOT true. It will. God often intervenes and stops it and give the person a break. Temptation is the battle… we can’t just follow our feelings. We need to choose our side (of course, this would be God) and stick with this decision regardless of anything, because temptation is like a test: does our faith go beyond our feelings or does it not. But the more you overcome it, the better your faith will get. Things like faith and love only get better when they are tested, if you choose them. And this will glorify God and win more merit for you in Heaven.
One thing: the general advice I’ve received or read is that when we are tempted against faith or purity, we shouldn’t battle the temptation directly. For some reason, this makes it worse. Don’t focus on, don’t think of it, just run. The more we entertain these thoughts, the more they will happen. Try to forget about them, and if they come up again, forget again, and repeat this until it gets better. Start praying right at the very moment they start, and ask Jesus’ Blood to cover you, and for Mother Mary to cover you with her mantle of protection. These are very powerful prayers. Ask your Guardian Angel and St Michael to help you.
I really do want to find a spiritual director. But I’m not sure how to find a good one. Do I just call up a church and ask “Hello, are there any smart, dedicated Catholics here who can handle questions on doubt, the occult and is willing to talk one on one on a relatively frequent basis?”
Thank you everyone for your (name removed by moderator)ut.
hmm well for this sort of thing, I’d recommend a priest… do you have any Catholic churches near you that have the Latin Mass like the FSSP, or diocesan Latin Mass? The reason I say this is because they tend to be very orthodox and knowledgeable, and the holy water in these parishes is also exorcized, and whenever I received blessings there it helped me a lot. i don’t know why, I just found it helpful. But ask God to guide you to the right priest, ask Mary to find him for you. If you know a parish that seems good and orthodox, maybe just make an appointment with a priest there, and talk to him… tell him that you are thinking of becoming Catholic, but you are tempted not to, but to believe new age beliefs.
God bless!
