Actually I didn’t notice that. Like I didn’t see any problems with your grammar or anything that just “jumped out” at me and the things you say do seem like they make sense. I have always been on the academic side but I crave the kinds of knowledge that other people have that could give insight into God. I don’t always keep track of “who says what” but I think your ideas are worth reading and considering.
The reason I don’t think you should read the Cloud is that just doesn’t seem like your calling, and you have personal reasons to be suspicious of its Catholicity. Maybe the Spirit moves you some other way.
Here I am compelled to ask, “are you kidding me?” Or maybe more specifically “did you think I overestimated you or your ability?”
You say you are not intellectual and this book is too complicated but you can read all that? To me, that’s about like saying Dr. Seuss is too complicated because the only thing you really understand is the encyclopedia and all of Thomas Acquinas’s writings.
If you are sticking to those books because you are concerned that no other resources are trustworthy, that’s a different story but please don’t tell me it’s because you’re not smart enough to read anything else.
But if you are OK with using the Bible for discussion, especially N.T. afa I’m concerned, that’s a good start. Especially if you think about the Bible as a “training manual” and not a “behavioral cookbook” if you know what I mean. Like if it only informs but it doesn’t shape and change you, including the fruit of the spirit (listed in Gal 5:22-23) then there is much more to be had to make the Good News, truly Good!
That’s as much a “mystical state” as any. Mysticism isn’t about being in some oddball state of mind that you don’t want to be in. Mysticism is the “science of love” by some definitions. For me, it includes how we as humans deal with mystery. We are incapable of living correctly according to our own understanding, says the scripture, so we need the training of Jesus and the guidance of the Holy Spirit. This “contemplative” thing might be what bothers you – silence of various kinds can be scary to a lot of people for a lot of reasons. Or maybe you aren’t called to it, or whatever. It may not come through your world as a prayer form, but who knows? Like you talked about the nuns that had the discipline and were joyful – or was that another poster?
But if you are making excuses to avoid something that may be life-giving, consider what Jesus meant when He said to go “into your inner room” and pray. The houses then did not have “inner rooms” but had only one room. So Jesus was speaking metaphorically. That may not make sense right away but that’s ok because I left out a whole bunch but just wanted to give you that one little pointer to a seed of Good News.
That is beautiful, but if you go by the Catechism than you will know that it says Christian prayer “should” advance beyond vocal and meditative, into a prayer of union itself. And then it goes to define that prayer as contemplative. So if you go by the
CCC where it describes the expressions of prayer, then you would automatically know about contemplative prayer without the Cloud at all. So you have no excuse to say you are OK with the CCC but not with “contemplative prayer” ok? deal anyway?
You have a great point about the heart condition not the form. The form is a tool to train my brain and heart to quit fighting or protecting each other or whatever it is they do, that keeps my mind busy and my heart tied in knots most of the day in the “ratrace” of civilization. If it doesn’t do that, I may as well be engaged in vocal prayer or meditation, which are willful mental activities that keep a certain “noise level” between God and my heart. So that’s why sometimes God has to shout at me to get my attention – I’m too busy being Martha to hear when He whispers …

kpeople:
So for me contemplative prayer forms were part of the key. But frankly I’m a lousy “practitioner” because I just sit 10-20 minutes in silence anymore as a routine, but maybe once in a long while. I respect people who do it daily or weekly, and occasionally I join them. Early on I realized that the value of the prayer is not the state of mind during the prayer, but the changes it makes and the seeds that get planted in me, so that my life outside of prayer improves. But personally I lack the discipline to do this silent prayer regularly, but from the times I did it and the things I learned from teachers and sources along the way, now I can gain the benefits even while I’m doing active stuff. Contemplative prayer has played a role in reducing my anger and increasing my patience. Partly because of having engaged in contemplative prayer forms, I can enjoy the moment, or the “Naked Now” as one author puts it, even when I’m saying the Rosary in a group.