IMHO, His creating you with the free will to choose good or evil is proof of his omnibenevolence. He could have created you with no free will at all. You choose the evil that you do, but God loves you so much that he gives you the means to get back into His graces. The hope is that you will conform your will to Christ and the desire to do evil will no longer exist within you.
You said you wanted to “act” like Jesus. Keep in mind that what you really want is to “be” like Christ, which means that your will is more like His…not just your *intellect. *This is something that requires grace, and God is so omnibenevolent that he gave us sacraments to dispense that grace you seek.