I thought of the Franciscans for a while but realised that while I admire their work my particular gifts would mean that if I did join them I wouldn’t be able to do as much good for the Lord as I could. I don’t mean this to sound like false humility, but I don’t think I am humble enough to do the work of a Franciscan. In any case - the FSsR are not Redemptorists in the strict sense and this is why they had to change their name from Transalpine Redemptorists. Their spiritual father is St.Alphonsus and of course many other Redemptorist saints, but the situation is complicated because for 20 or so years they were an Order affiliated with the SSPX. After reconciling with Rome they had to change their name.
Not allowed to go on pretty much ever

Not just during my formation years but also afterwards. The FSsR are missionary monks - “Carthusians at home, Apostles abroad”. In other words, it’s strict observance and a very austere kind of life. I am happy about that. While Forums and internet is useful, I recognize that they are a distraction in some sense. Having said that, I know Fr. Michael Mary (the Superior) updates their blog and communicates via email. But this is out of necessity - he doesn’t sit and just chill on the internet
Correct, and for the FSsR I believe they are even more strict. Think of them as 15th century monks who happen to have a Superior with future technology who occasionally updates a blog
Once I am in (if it is God’s will) then I won’t be coming back. The hours of monk do not have specified “Internet time”. At least not in the FSsR - which I am thankful for. It’s Jesus Christ 24/7 for the rest of my life
Ah, yes, I understand you now. Yes I agree - perhaps it comes off as trivializing someone’s struggles when the advice is just “pull your sucks up lad!”. Either way I pray that whatever he wants to do that he can succeed, and let it be the will of God Almighty!
Praying for you, a lay cistercian would be a great idea! And thanks for your well wishes. God has given me a gift that I don’t deserve and I only want too honour His will.