hi, if i could reference a book; the cloud of unknowing-kind of antique…offering possibility of contemplative prayer- a bit heavy reading…summed up for beginners (and sinners) …as prayer is like being in a cloud/ a lostness/yet there is to be growth…this seems …’ hey, my mind seems to be in a cloud…" This only requires a new learning curve…to seek God; as definitions of him begin as where he is not…then look else where…he is not in nervousness; he is not in fidgeting; he is not to be found in a busy activity…a quiet time is needed…that being discovered as a time to know that you are made in the image of God-and loved no matter what; no matter how a man tries, the perfection is not there…Hence there can be a willful response as a time to exclude human persons, their judgement, and attitude/memories of these/leave them and their words behind and enter cloudy part of the mind; now thoughts proceed that are horrible…That is not God either…those hidden thoughts…developed last weak…still hidden…and return/show themselves, as these had been known to be repeating and come out-just at the inappropriate time…now this is a panic-God would not be in the fears…Look else where…because a man of God cannot waste time to delay healing…(the book-the cloud of unknowing states:“i would leave all that thing that i could think…and choose to my love that thing that i cannot think…”) unquote; so rising above , in prayer time, above the distractions of any thought…this is time to discover how much God loves you/and how much you love God…(at a certain point in time-there is a risk-but ask the Holy Spirit-’ Lord, what am i truly feeling?)…by going to a ‘place’ of
hidden things of two weeks ago…these are in a cloud of the mind-yet divine love-is more powerful…ask for the gift-the presence of God! so that your life will not be in dysfunction, nor disarray, those familiar and painful cycles, which might have already began to lower the quality of your church life and every day work a day life…if God is found in a work and action or thought-let it be to ask the Holy Spirit to dive into the mercy of Christ (it is real and healing)…thx patrick