Hello fellow Discerners

! I decided to get on this forum topic, because I felt my contemplative calling at age 37. I have visited the beautiful Cistercian order in Prairie du Sac, WI, and did a 2 month live in. But as much I felt called there, He was saying in my heart, it was not to be. I still keep in contact with the nuns, and their community is really growing. I do not feel called to the Benedictines either, nor the Dominicans. Although, after writing to numerous cloistered, Dominican communities, only one accepted me as a possible applicant. You see, I have a very mild case of epilepsy. I have no problems with it. I take only 2 meds (29 years now). Many religious communities frown on those of us who have āimpedimentsā, or health issues. What is that?

So, I was visiting a shrine to St.Joseph in Santa Cruz, CA., and felt a strong tugging on my heart, and a voice whisper in my ear. He led me to St. Josephās Monastery in Aptos, CA. My friend and I drove the car up the road, as it went to the left, and then around to the right. The large sign said āPoor Claresā on the fence. We both looked at each other. We drove down through the beautiful gate and parked. We got out, entered the chapel, and begin praying. My friend said it wasnāt for her, but for me to be there. Behind the stained glass partition, we saw the Blessed Sacrament being exposed. Off to the right of the Alter, was where the nuns sat for mass, or any other special mass. A sister came in the chapel and asked if weād like to speak to M.Clare, the Prioress. My friend said yes, as I did also. Went into the large parlor, and soon she came in. We all began talking and she asked many questions, and I seemed to answer them without hesitation. My friend decided to go back into the chapel and pray, but not without some drinks and cookies the sisters had made. Mother asked me if Iād be interested in doing a 3 month live in as an Aspirant/Candidate. How could this be happening I thought. Oh Yes! I smiled at her! She went and got all the paperwork I needed to fill out. One of the extern sisters started taking measurements of me. I found out I would live in the cloister, have my own cell, 4 postulant jumperāsābrownā, 2 veils, and Iād be in the Novitiate hallway. I would have a list of things to bring of my own. This experience was a transformation for myself and my calling. Indeed I am Franciscan 100%, with alitte Carmelite thrown in.

! I am currently 46, but numerous fellow catholics ask if I am a nun already. In the eyes of God I am. However, I am discerning with contemplative orders here, that accept women over 40. And a community called the Daughters of St.Joseph!! They accept to age 50. They will wear the habit of a Carmelite. They are in the Visions magazine. Also Institute for Religious Life have a great site up. Many older vocations are listed. May Our Lord Reward You All Abuntantly.:nun1: