Lord,
Deliver lynnehelen’s husband from the snares of the devil,
and protect her from all attacks of the enemy and his minions.
Drive out these demons in the name of your son, Jesus Christ,
In whose name we pray:
Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done
on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.
For the intervention of St. Michael, the great general of the armies of Heaven:
Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray;
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host,
by the Divine Power of God,
cast into hell Satan and all the evil spirits
who roam throughout the world seeking the ruin of souls.
May God bless you and your husband, and pull him away from these demonic forces.
As I have dealt once before with a man possessed by Satan and practicing black magic, these words are very powerful for me. I believe that I am still under attack because of the force of that man’s evil twenty-five years ago. It was a person whom I became involved with when I was placed in a state mental institution after making a suicide attempt that left me damaged (I became legally disabled as a result).
I lived in fear for so long, not having the Church, and I believe that my husband may have been affected by my continuing connection with this person in my mind. I kept in touch with this person, as at one time I believed myself to be in love with him. I thought his black magic was just a delusion, even at the same time as I felt deep fear of him, and yet he was so jolly and funny when he was acting normal around people that I didn’t make the connection.
I fear influence by evil spirits in the form of the “power of suggestion” by my mother and those she joined with to have me written off as a lunatic with a psychiatric diagnosis when in fact I was physically damaged by the overdose. My mother was also influenced by this man at the hospital (he claims to have pinched her on the butt, and she chastised me for not accepting roses he sent me on the local psych ward that was a conduit back to the state hospital.) Through the use of the power of suggestion, which my mother owns to have deliberately used to influence and control me, my mind became vulnerable and unstable when already weakened through the use of psychotropic medication and through the damage from the overdose, and my psychiatric care became mixed up with my mother’s own instability, this man possessed by Satan (who I now know not to be a delusion), and my husband’s hysterical assaults on my mind and on my person early in our marriage when he was struggling to control me. He had his own issues, and was unable to tolerate mine.
This issue is surely at the heart of the bewildering spiral into disaster that started at the state hospital 25 years ago. I hoped to find help and rescue through my marriage; instead, it became enmeshed in the mess going on at home with my family with whom I went to stay for two years after leaving the state hospital for the last time, after which time I met my husband, whose impression of me at the beginning was that I was possessed. I thought he was joking, Now, I don’t think so. He has had a head injury (a year ago) and is now vulnerable himself. Through a terrible but beautiful grace he is able to connect with me now where I was at in my head all that time that he couldn’t reach me–that’s what I was feeling last night. He had a strong mind, a “hard head.” I cried for the loss of the old husband I knew, even though he had been abusive, but now he is quite gentle at times, and I appreciate this, and that I can reach him through it for myself and for my son, but I still fear his return this weekend as in his weakened state he has done some frightening things, he already had the habit of staying up late drinking and then sleeping all day, now he has returned to this pattern and has lost the ability to compensate.
So I still feel fearful for and of him, and yet a little hopeful, and yet these words which I have quoted above mean a great deal to me both for myself and for my husband as I myself continue to be prey to “the power of suggestion” in ways that are hard to explain, which developed over time, through which I became prey to evil thoughts and manipulation of my mind and behavior through the human evil of others, even people who think they are doing good, especially those belonging to the medical and mental health professions. In short, I feel under attack generally in so many areas of my life and within my own mind.
So, thank you for these prayers.
I guess we are moving toward divorce.
