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!!! I didn’t see that there was a second page of prayers, which I have just read, thank you so much for this help.
There was one more place I wanted to go to complete my ongoing prayer request of the past several months, I have talked about my mom and my husband and my son, there are also a brother, sister, and sister-in-law in the picture, but then there is my father, whom I learned to “love as an enemy” as he has refused my affections and honor and respect and has sought to thwart me.
What I wrote in my last post pretty much gets to the heart of the situation I am dealing with, which NOBODY has had the patience to hear and understand about, but then, outside of all of this is my Dad, a former high-tech professional at the heart of the development of, trying to be modest, the computer revolution as we know it, in short, a very influential person, British, educated, bright, lively, and likeable, in his day. He had a mild stroke 15 years ago. My adventures at the psych ward and state hospital 25 years ago caused him to lose his job (his new directorship in the wake of the break-up of the major corporation he worked for caused a move to SE Pennsylvania and his workplace was about 3 miles down the road from the local psych ward where I was screaming my head off for 2 years, didn’t look good for him.
Briefly, he is Catholic but denies it through logic (having tried to “prove” his faith through logic as a youth). Continuing to be honored as a member of the high-tech industry, he seeks to maintain a correct intellectual and social posture as such, reads the Bible in order to show that it is just a “popular delusion” (I can’t remember the exact words but there was a title of a book he referenced to me along those lines.)
In short, he struggles deep inside with faith issues, with only the help of a damaged mind and my mother’s nonsense, to be kind, and in doing so he is deeply injurious to MY faith. I am quite sure that in his heart he is a true and faithful Christian, I was brought up with those values despite the jargon and logic of atheism I learned to spout when I was young. He has influenced my husband, who had a sort of working faith that was a little crazy but loving and loveable, towards a dangerously sane disavowal of all Christian belief which may have hurt him deeply. My father did this to him through careless speech, just playing, seeking to have an influence, without regard for the fact that somewhere in his own mind he knows perfectly well what is true and right and good. I broke with him a few years ago when he said, “I can hurt people if I want to.”
So if you would take a few moments to pray for him also, he’s just a working class stiff from Yorkshire, England, who made good in America and it went to his head. If you would take a few moments, thank you so much for all your care and concern for my situation, if you would take a few moments to pray for him also, you would be doing a service to society as he continues to be quite influential, having a friendly relationship with the Editor of a newspaper in his vicinity in which he gets letters published through which he has set himself up as a moral authority (pro-abortion being one prong of the agenda he puts forth.) Once again, he is just playing. He never went back to work after leaving his job in his fifties, and has an active mind, and nothing to do with it but make trouble. Meanwhile somewhere inside he guards his own faith. Please pray AGAINST his folly. Just as I love him, the only way I can, as my enemy.
He was abused as a child and at the outset of my involvement with psych professionals I made allegations of sexual abuse against him, a dimension of this situation which I have already explored adequately in subsequent therapy but the hostility between him and me lingers.
There was one more place I wanted to go to complete my ongoing prayer request of the past several months, I have talked about my mom and my husband and my son, there are also a brother, sister, and sister-in-law in the picture, but then there is my father, whom I learned to “love as an enemy” as he has refused my affections and honor and respect and has sought to thwart me.
What I wrote in my last post pretty much gets to the heart of the situation I am dealing with, which NOBODY has had the patience to hear and understand about, but then, outside of all of this is my Dad, a former high-tech professional at the heart of the development of, trying to be modest, the computer revolution as we know it, in short, a very influential person, British, educated, bright, lively, and likeable, in his day. He had a mild stroke 15 years ago. My adventures at the psych ward and state hospital 25 years ago caused him to lose his job (his new directorship in the wake of the break-up of the major corporation he worked for caused a move to SE Pennsylvania and his workplace was about 3 miles down the road from the local psych ward where I was screaming my head off for 2 years, didn’t look good for him.
Briefly, he is Catholic but denies it through logic (having tried to “prove” his faith through logic as a youth). Continuing to be honored as a member of the high-tech industry, he seeks to maintain a correct intellectual and social posture as such, reads the Bible in order to show that it is just a “popular delusion” (I can’t remember the exact words but there was a title of a book he referenced to me along those lines.)
In short, he struggles deep inside with faith issues, with only the help of a damaged mind and my mother’s nonsense, to be kind, and in doing so he is deeply injurious to MY faith. I am quite sure that in his heart he is a true and faithful Christian, I was brought up with those values despite the jargon and logic of atheism I learned to spout when I was young. He has influenced my husband, who had a sort of working faith that was a little crazy but loving and loveable, towards a dangerously sane disavowal of all Christian belief which may have hurt him deeply. My father did this to him through careless speech, just playing, seeking to have an influence, without regard for the fact that somewhere in his own mind he knows perfectly well what is true and right and good. I broke with him a few years ago when he said, “I can hurt people if I want to.”
So if you would take a few moments to pray for him also, he’s just a working class stiff from Yorkshire, England, who made good in America and it went to his head. If you would take a few moments, thank you so much for all your care and concern for my situation, if you would take a few moments to pray for him also, you would be doing a service to society as he continues to be quite influential, having a friendly relationship with the Editor of a newspaper in his vicinity in which he gets letters published through which he has set himself up as a moral authority (pro-abortion being one prong of the agenda he puts forth.) Once again, he is just playing. He never went back to work after leaving his job in his fifties, and has an active mind, and nothing to do with it but make trouble. Meanwhile somewhere inside he guards his own faith. Please pray AGAINST his folly. Just as I love him, the only way I can, as my enemy.
He was abused as a child and at the outset of my involvement with psych professionals I made allegations of sexual abuse against him, a dimension of this situation which I have already explored adequately in subsequent therapy but the hostility between him and me lingers.
