God was not in the strong wind, not in the raging fire, and not in the earthquake.
Your faith life has been active - very active. Maybe too active.
What that means is perhaps contemplation could use a boost. As radical as it sounds, the desire to suffer for love of God is what separates the great Saints from average believers. Suffering is unavoidable. But, what if you embrace suffering - even the dryness you are experiencing now? Spiritual dryness is the lifetime of suffering that Saint Teresa of Calcutta was assigned.
Some perspective: Like you my faith life took off, and all manner of amazing things occurred. Little did I know - it was all in preparation.
I developed non-Hodgkin’s T-Cell Lymphoma. It relapsed twice. I developed a second lymphoma. From the 12 drugs I had received, I developed a marrow cancer (MDS - precursor to Acute Myeloid Leukemia). Finally, I had all three cancers simultaneously. Underwent a stem cell transplant. Have been dealing with transplant rejection issues ever since. Now on my 20th anti-cancer drug.
After twelve years of constant treatment, there have been no more miracles in prayer - my life itself now being the only miracle. Rounded off from 1%, my chance of being alive is zero.
Some spiritual deserts are extremely busy. Late at night, when the sky is clear, I sit outside and contemplate the heavens, knowing that God has been with me all along.
