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Emil
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I am a fifty-five year-old man who lived the gay lifestyle from a very early age until I walked out of my favorite gay bar on February 14, 2000. I had prayed and prayed for God to show me the way, and he kindly answered my prayers. I have not been with a man since December 1998; haven’t been back to the gay bars, but twice ten years ago; and I haven’t sinned against the flesh in about twelve years. At one time I was addicted to pornography for three years and I have never gone back to it. I live a life of chastity, finally. Temptations arise once in a while, but I beat them with prayer, and it works. As a matter of fact, I had a very sexual dream earlier while taking a nap and am highly disturbed by it, but knowing that it’s a temptation, I pray and continue carrying my cross. A lot of gay people would wrongfully say I live a repressed life. Those are the type of people who are not helping you and they need prayers.
I feel very sad for you. I know what it is to love someone and the utter heart-break of losing that person you love so much. You are in a difficult position because a priest might indeed tell you that although living chastely with another man, you are living in near occasion of sin, most especially if there have been times when the two of you have broken down and gotten intimate in any way.
Try not to fear Hell, but to aim for the presence of God for both yourself and your loved one. It seems you know what the Church expects of you and you’re very blessed to have a man who shares your beliefs. Try to find a priest known for his piety and go to him. Try to go soon. And, In the event that he should tell you to live apart, you can handle that when the time comes and not now by living in anxiety. I know what I’m talking about because I suffer from anxiety and it makes one’s cross more difficult to carry.
I have suffered the loss of friends who are very liberal and I have generally suffered much; I am very lonely which I’m going to try to change. But, Jesus suffered much because He loves you, your loved one and all of humanity past, present, and future. He suffered for us so we might have eternal life with Him. He knows your troubles and most importantly, your heart.
As I told many before you, “Pray for God to show you the way even if you’re in the proverbial gutter. Pray every day and don’t cease. And He will show you the way.” I told people this while I was still living in sin and what I advised became reality when God gently did show me the way.
May God profoundly bless you and all who read this. Although I stand against matters such as gay marriage and the scandal of gay adoptions, I know first-hand the sufferings of those who are gay and at the same time seek God.
I feel very sad for you. I know what it is to love someone and the utter heart-break of losing that person you love so much. You are in a difficult position because a priest might indeed tell you that although living chastely with another man, you are living in near occasion of sin, most especially if there have been times when the two of you have broken down and gotten intimate in any way.
Try not to fear Hell, but to aim for the presence of God for both yourself and your loved one. It seems you know what the Church expects of you and you’re very blessed to have a man who shares your beliefs. Try to find a priest known for his piety and go to him. Try to go soon. And, In the event that he should tell you to live apart, you can handle that when the time comes and not now by living in anxiety. I know what I’m talking about because I suffer from anxiety and it makes one’s cross more difficult to carry.
I have suffered the loss of friends who are very liberal and I have generally suffered much; I am very lonely which I’m going to try to change. But, Jesus suffered much because He loves you, your loved one and all of humanity past, present, and future. He suffered for us so we might have eternal life with Him. He knows your troubles and most importantly, your heart.
As I told many before you, “Pray for God to show you the way even if you’re in the proverbial gutter. Pray every day and don’t cease. And He will show you the way.” I told people this while I was still living in sin and what I advised became reality when God gently did show me the way.
May God profoundly bless you and all who read this. Although I stand against matters such as gay marriage and the scandal of gay adoptions, I know first-hand the sufferings of those who are gay and at the same time seek God.
:hug3::angel1::harp: God loves you! 