Why should you care about anyone else’s “transformation” except your own?
Why are you so interested in evaluating the character of anyone else’s spirituality? I’m not talking here of any explicit statement of heterodoxy, aspostasy, disbelief, but rather the behavior of others.
We are to monitor our own behavior, our own motivations, our own “call to continual conversion,” our own transformation. And as to “observing” others, we don’t have a video camera on them, I presume, outside of our first-hand experience. Maybe someone who “interacted” poorly within our view later apologized and “transformed” himself outside of our view.
Whoa Elizabeth, slow down. I nowhere inferred that I was judging the character of one’s spirituality. There but for the grace of God go I, you may have missed the part where I was witnessing about
my own conversion experience. I know I am not alone in that experience because I have shared with others who have been through the same thing. When I see my (young adult) children make the same mistakes I did, I say “there but for the grace of God go I”.
I am merely making an observation, and not one based on being judgmental but based on the
my own experiences and the witness of others I encounter, what I have read on the subject, my experiences of a small taste of monastic life and from speaking to monks.
And also from the witness of my own wife, who has undergone a huge transformation from being very hostile to Catholicism and monasticism and a strict Evangelical (she’s Anglican), to being intrigued and curious about it and hungering to read about it and experience it. She has been touched by grace, and our marriage has been saved by it.
I have no control over others’ conversion process nor do I ever criticize people who clearly are struggling with faith or have no faith. We are all at different points on the walk and I can only work on my own transformation but with mutual community support from family and my monastic family. I was outside the Church for 22 years before reverting. I have the battle scars to prove it.
Two weeks ago I was at the Benedictine Oblates’ World Congress in Rome where I led 4 discussion workshops and heard touching testimony from other oblates about their conversion and transformation process. Some from “nothing” to new or renewed faith, and some who were lukewarm, outwardly pious but inwardly dry, who underwent a profound inner conversion.
I am not sitting in the pew judging and saying “hmm, looks like his or her transformation is incomplete”. I am speaking of very real experiences, as told by others, and an experience that was documented by St. Benedict 1500 years ago. This is not a novel or “new age” concept; it is rooted in the 12 degrees of humility in the Rule, and also the experiences of St. John of the Cross. My wife was with me at the congress and participated in the workshops, and her eyes were opened by what she heard, and she could sense the transformation that many oblates expressed in their mannerisms.