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JamesCaruso
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She is not leading you away. It is your weakness [whatever it is and I don’t need to know] with regard to women that is leading you away. If the thought of God brought to mind some sin of mine and resulted in my falling into that sin should I therefore not think of God because he had become an occasion of sin. As St. Paul might say, “Perish the thought!” That is not to say that I should continue to think of God and so sin, if that makes any sense. You need to find some way to approach Mary that does not lead to the sin that seems to have enslaved you. It is not Mary but the thought of woman in general that ensnares you and you may need psychological help to overcome this if it is so embedded in your psyche. I am not one who holds that the solution to every need is in the spiritual realm. Psychologists and psychiatrists have their place in helping us with our mental and emotional health. If I am off the mark, please disregard-- I am only trying to be helpful and to follow what I perceive as the leading of God. It wouldn’t be the first time I was off the mark. You are in my prayers. Have faith that there is help for your problem, Never despair.What isn’t being discussed much is that not everyone does well with Marian devotion. I tried to have that strong devotion the saints had, because they say it leads to Jesus. It failed. The way I know it failed is because I fell away from the purity I had managed to maintain for years. Let’s just say that any closeness with an unrelated woman (Mary is our mother by adoption, and I converted at 26) is a problem for me (please take my word for it, I’d rather not talk about my sinful past). I thought Mary would be the exception. I was wrong.
I still have a devotion to her. I honor her, I believe all the dogmas, and I pray the Rosary every day. But I don’t buy into the “no one comes to Jesus except through Mary” bit, because nothing in the Bible or Church teaching says I’ll be damned for not relaying everything through Mary like some saints preached.
It is still true that no one comes to Jesus except through Mary, whether you believe it or not, just as it is true that no one comes to salvation except through Jesus, even if they don’t know Jesus. Mary is there leading us to Jesus and it is by her dispensing of graces given entirely to her that we come to know Our Lord. Jesus came to us through Mary and we go to him through her, even if we don’t recognize it as such. That we are adopted into the Holy Family is not just a nice metaphor, it is a reality. We cannot properly take our place in the family if we deny Our Mother and only recognize our Brother, Jesus. Somehow, we must come to relate to her as Jesus does. If events of our past make it impossible for us to enter into such a relationship we clearly need help. I pray that you get the help you need. **Meanwhile, keep doing what works for you. One thing we know for sure-- Jesus understands. **