Agreed.
This person told me he is attracted to diapers. Not diapers by themselves of course, but he is aroused by wearing them and by the thought of a woman wearing them. He told me the first memory he ever had of this fascination towards diapers was when he was 5 or 6 years old and his parent’s friend brought over their son who was the same age but still wore a diaper. He said he remembers just being fascinated and very interested by the fact that this kid still wore diapers. It wasn’t anything sexual back then, just a weird fascination. Anyway, it didn’t resurface again until he was in junior high and that’s when it became a more sexual thing.
As far as I know, he was never abused as a child or had anything traumatic or out of the ordinary happen in his early life. Though I suppose there is a chance that he cmould just be keeping that information private.
With ‘abuse’ or ‘trauma’ I think its important to consider that there could always have been instances in our early childhood where a particular situation may have taken place that the child would have completely forgotten about. It’s also possible that the situation may have gone unnoticed by anyone.
When hormonal changes take place during puberty, its possible that an old memory stored in the brain from long ago could resurface once again, especially if the brain ‘links’ that memory as something ‘similar’ to a sexual experience even if it wasn’t actually sexual at all. Perhaps for example, a young child views an old painting of a woman with long legs and high heel boots and considers it
strange… That memory gets stored in the
strange section of the brain right next to the
arousal department that hasn’t quite developed yet. Ten years later, that same child hasn’t learned anything about the birds and the bees and next thing he knows his hormones go into overdrive… The first thing that pops in his mind was that suppressed memory from 10 years ago. Now he’s attracted specifically to women who wear high heel boots and thinks that he just wondered about it one day and went with it.
With transvestite fetishes, its likely that something similar to that must have taken place. Maybe others were involved or maybe not. In any case, unnatural sexual attractions might be caused by an unawareness or ignorance of the natural sex act between a male and a female during ages of heightened hormonal activity, therefore its the imagination of a child thats left filling that void -stamping its image into the mind permanently.
…well, that’s all I’ve got to say about that… To the OP, I don’t think you should be so hard on yourself, since life decisions arent usually left to young kids, which is probably what you were when you acquired your dilemma -IOW, You were wronged through circumstances beyond your control… You’ll just have to keep yourself in check, and keep asking The Lord to help you. Who knows, maybe in the end it will become one of the main factors in initiating an unbreakable personal relationship with God, becoming an actual link to salvation… God works in mysterious ways.
good post!