@DominikaPL
Welcome to Catholic Answers Forums, Dominika! We’re glad that you’ve found your way here and hope you’ll be here for a long, long time and that we can all grow together.
You sound like a sincere Catholic young lady who very much wants to please God in the choices that you make, and that is good! Your Guardian Angel and Our Lady obviously teamed up to warn you that something about this site was off-kilter, just plain not what you’ve always been taught. How fortunate you are that you didn’t fall for the wild claims on that site!
You’ve told us that you struggle with OCD, and it’s so good that you recognize that because many people don’t understand that about themselves. God knows your heart, Dominika . . . He knows that inside, where it counts, you have a beautiful heart and try your best to be perfect for Him so that you can receive the Holy Eucharist with an unblemished soul and a clear conscience, and spend eternity with Him in heaven. No way is that stupid!
But because we’re human, we can’t possibly be perfect; we just need to trust Jesus more than we do. When we’re young, if we think that we must be perfect, it’s easy to think that every little venial sin is a lot more major than it is, that we’ve ruined our chance for heaven, and then the panic makes us feel sick. But that doesn’t mean we’re stupid, Dominika. It just means that we love Jesus so very much and don’t want to offend Him. It also means that we keep forgetting that our souls are wiped clean when we go to Confession—completely clean, with no stain whatsoever remaining!
Talk to your priest, Dominika. He can help you beat this OCD! Meanwhile, pat yourself on the back for seeing through that ugly website and letting us know that it’s out there.
