I can sympathize with this, I really can.
But I wonder how much “not feeling sacred” is down to our own attitudes.
IMO, there can be a point at which our own aesthetic sensibilities get mistaken for an objectively “correct” and “proper” way of worshiping God, almost as if He won’t settle for certain externals that are of a lower quality than our particular tastes demand.
I will agree that beautiful contexts make it easier to raise one’s heart to God.
But I think it’s wise to look into myself to determine whether what I really want is to worship God through a beautiful Mass, or if I want to merely use God’s awesomeness as an excuse to indulge in certain aesthetic pleasures, or if it’s a combination of both. Maybe the bells and smells are really more for me than they are for God.
This is a sincere question for me, and I don’t know if it applies to others. But it does apply to me.
I think I can answer this question for you, it’s going to probably apply uniquely to me, so bear with me.
I grew up in Pentecostalism, and attended various Evangelical churches all my life. Both my parents left Catholicism for Evangelicalism shortly before their marriage.
The services are generally divided into three sets (I swear this has a relevance to your questions): worship and praise (where songs and hymns are played and sung), announcements, and a sermon from the pastor. Monthly we would have Holy Communion (if we were lucky). All in all, the people are nice, and you can form a good solid foundation of Christian faith, even if it is incomplete. However, I became gradually more dissatisfied with the church because the emphasis began to be placed on Jesus being your best friend as opposed to your God that you must serve, on a rock band sort of worship service, and become “appealing” to young people (which I am, technically, since I’m 25). The final straw came when one year they cancelled the Christmas Vigil for a reason I don’t even remember, and a friend of mine took me to her Lutheran service. Must be the same thing, right? We’re all Protestants, after all. But there was deep reverence that was missing in all the churches I’ve ever attended before, a love and defense for Holy Communion, and a belief in
lex orendi, lex credendi. I never looked back to Evangelicalism after that, and that’s what eventually drew me to Catholicism.
What’s the point? The point is that what drew me to Catholicism was a deep reverence in Christ that I found in the Tridentine Latin Mass (originally). The way the people and the priest genuflected and prayed with such humility, such reverence, it deeply touched me. And this was increased by the beautiful Gregorian chant and hymns that they used. The wording in them is magnificent, holy, beautiful. And I’m not trying to dismiss the validity of the OF Mass or that people don’t get anything out of it. However, that Sunday when I went to that Mass that seemed bland, I felt like I was back in an Evangelical church aside a couple of rubrics. I don’t mean to be rude, but that’s what I felt.
Recently I was at a friend’s funeral that was celebrated in the OF, the priest introduced “This is the air I breathe” as one of the hymn - which is beautiful, don’t get me wrong - but was one of those very songs I remember playing in Evangelical churches growing up. To me that doesn’t compare to the *Dies Irae *and the
In Paradisum. There is also a deep theological message in these chants that are very moving, and much deeper and thoughtful than “This is the air I breathe.” I think that aesthetics can have a very important place in worship. It helps bring an attitude and a mentality of worship.