Vicious demons, guilt

[lynnehelen]

Please dear Lord redeem me from the thing s I have done in my heart, in my mind, and to my body through vicious demons. After I went to the state hospital after an injury to my private area by a catheter in an icu after an overdose, I fell prey to a sick and serious masturbation habit which was prompted partly by physical need for relief. Years later I am over it and cry over the things I used to use to think of to help me achieve my purpose, which was to get physical and mental relief. But a feeling or a residue remains that leads me into error and into deep trouble. Perhaps this is at the root of the desperate things I have been experiencing since that time. I felt like a monster when I woke up from that overdose, and somewhere inside me that monster remains. I waver between faith and optimism, and paranoia and fear. I have a serious situation in my marriage/divorce, as I have expressed in other prayer requests. I trust in the Lord that my financial needs will be met according to his will. But I fear more pain and persecution and I can only believe it is because of the unrepented evil I did in my heart years ago. I have no confessor and would be too shocked to confess the things I thought and did in my heart and mind.

I will be seeing a new doctor today, a lady, after a bout with painful heart spasms that lasted 36 hours. There is more to this story that I cannot tell here. I am back at home at my husband’s house for the week and my son is on a religious retreat until tomorrow with his school, he is probably scared, but I have the house to myself which I need.

I need to reach that part of me where i still harbor those shameful feelings deep inside from years ago.

I recognize that through coming to terms with this I would grow in grace, it is what I need. Please pray for me.

 

[244Rocket]

Praying hard for you to find happiness and peace of mind.

 

[DihydrogenOxide]

Every day, do the following:

1. Ask God to bind the demon of masturbation and sexual perversion in Jesus’ Name.
2. Pray the prayer of St. Michael.
3. Ask your guardian angel especially to help you in that matter.

If you don’t have a blessed miraculous medal or a blessed St. Benadict medal, get one and wear it around your neck.

I will pray for you.

Dear God, please come to the aid of lynnehelen and bind the demon of masturbation and sexual perversion in Jesus’ name. Please also bind any and all other demons who set out to ruin her soul.

St. Michael the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him we humbly pray, and do thou, oh prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, thrust into hell satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world, seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

 

[ready]

Lord, please give lynnehelen the courage she needs to make a sincere, humble confession. You will heal her and give her strength through this sacrament, and will reconcile her to you. Please help her to understand how necessary it is for her to make her confession. She needn’t see a confessor she knows personally. How is she supposed to even heal if she is in mortal sin and remains in this state? She needs to see a doctor, and by a “doctor” I mean she needs to see a priest…for spiritual healing in the Sacrament of Penance. Please help her to meet with a priest, and help her to trust him. Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer.

 

[UpUpAndAway]

I will remember you in my daily prayers. Please do not hesitate to go to confession! God bless