Want For Martyrdom

[Anthony_V]

Sometimes I daydream about being a martyr so I can get past all my sins and Purgatory to get straight to Heaven. Is that a bad thing? I want God so bad sometimes, but other times I put myself first, and then I get upset, and then I want God again. He does give me peace, but It’s a cycle that constantly endangers my Salvation!

P.S.
Re-reading that, I found I centered a love on myself-- what I want, holiness. Is that a bad thing either?

 

[po18guy]

I suggest that you resign to God’s will for your life. He may desire that you suffer greatly, even for many years, but will give you every ounce of strength that you need during that suffering. I dare not pray for martyrdom, for I do not know if I would fail at the last moment! As with the Apostles at Gethsemane, “Pray that you will not enter into temptation!”. We are to admire the martyrs, and to bear faithful witness as they did, but the path to the Kingdom took much longer, and was travelled in much more pain, by the greatest of Saints.

 

[JRKH]

Sometimes I daydream about being a martyr so I can get past all my sins and Purgatory to get straight to Heaven. Is that a bad thing? I want God so bad sometimes, but other times I put myself first, and then I get upset, and then I want God again. He does give me peace, but It’s a cycle that constantly endangers my Salvation!

P.S.
Re-reading that, I found I centered a love on myself-- what I want, holiness. Is that a bad thing either?

Bless you for your careful self examination…These aer good and important questions…and ones that all too few ask.

The journey into holiness is a long one and almost always beigns with “self-centered” motives. Not that Love (of God) is not present, but rather that “fear” (of punishment) is a greater motivator. As you progress, servile fear is gradually replaced with filial Love and fear lessens and may even disappear all together.
Likewise, this shifting back and forth between “Self centering” and “Christ centering” will find it’s proper balance. Remember that the second of the great commandments is that we love others as we love ourselves. So obviously Loving ourselves is an important component in these matters.
So don’t be afriad to love the “self”. Just make sure yo are loving the “self” that loves God.


Latly - as to “dreaming of Martyrdom”. We all think of martyrs who suffer greatly and heroically. But another definition of the word is one who gives up something of great value for the sake of a principle…If you were to seek after giving up you entire life to the service of God, in what ever vocation He has in mind for you, you would be giving Him the thing of greatest value to you - your life.
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God.

Peace
James

 

[Nelka]

Sometimes I daydream about being a martyr so I can get past all my sins and Purgatory to get straight to Heaven. Is that a bad thing? I want God so bad sometimes, but other times I put myself first, and then I get upset, and then I want God again. He does give me peace, but It’s a cycle that constantly endangers my Salvation!

P.S.
Re-reading that, I found I centered a love on myself-- what I want, holiness. Is that a bad thing either?

I always wanted to be martyred for Him out of love.

Would you be strong enough though?

If you complete a plenary indulgence every week, the most you will have in Purgatory is one weeks worth of sin. (Not a week in Purgatory).

 

[m134e5]

Sometimes I daydream about being a martyr so I can get past all my sins and Purgatory to get straight to Heaven. Is that a bad thing? I want God so bad sometimes, but other times I put myself first, and then I get upset, and then I want God again. He does give me peace, but It’s a cycle that constantly endangers my Salvation!

P.S.
Re-reading that, I found I centered a love on myself-- what I want, holiness. Is that a bad thing either?

It can be a good thing to want to love God so selflessly, but you must be careful not to be prideful.

 

[crystal_waters]

Sometimes I daydream about being a martyr so I can get past all my sins and Purgatory to get straight to Heaven.

who said they go straight to heaven?..just because they were martyred doesnt mean they get a free ticket to heaven…if there is a speck a sin on their soul then they would still need purgatory…

they were martyredbecause they love god and would rather die than give up their faith…they wasnt doing it for your reasons

 

[John_of_Woking]

I am a wimp. I want Heaven but without the pain. I want Christ but the Cross scares me. I love Jesus. I frequent the Sacraments but I bet you I would wimp out and deny Him if so much as threatened with physical pain. This I pray for above all - Courage. Please pray for this pathetic cowardly soul.