Hmmm, how to state this in chronological order.
Have been interested in religion for most of my life, how and why people believe what they believe. I can now say that this subconsciously and probaly came from wondering the same of myself without fully realizing it til recently.
Jesus has always been The One for me.
I have had many difficulties in the last dozen years and I know it is Him that keeps me going. But I now want and need to know why if possible. At least a clue.
On Good Friday 2010, I could not sleep, as usual. I flipped through channels and arrived at the live airing of the Veneration of the Cross. I casually thought, as I always had, why wasn’t this done when I was a kid? (Protestant) I mean He died for us. I never understood how they/we could leave out one of THE most aspects of Jesus. The Homily was great. “Truly, this Man was the Son of God.”
Brought me to tears. Then I said to myself far less casually, He died for us. He really died for us. And brutally. How can this not be observed as such?
And so my interest in religion became a bit more centered on the faiths of Protestants and Catholics and their differences. Why the differences are and how they came to be. I learned much. And I read from one of my favorite authors, a Catholic priest, who I’ve been reading for years, before even thinking of Catholicism, “Find a reason for your Faith.”
The veneration of the Cross made me say “OK.”
I persisted with finding information in books and on-line as my life is more challenging than I can bear. One day, I typed in “Catholic doctrines” and here I am.
I love it, and it is overwhelming but compelling learning.
I also realize that those last two lines were all you wanted…

My first meeting with the RCIA director is this Sunday. I cannot proceed with this quickly anymore, But I shall do my best.
Forgive my length. I am very isolated and, well, there’s always someone here at CAF.
I am trying so diligently not to fall into a pile of tears, but that is soooo very challenging and I often fail. CAF helps much.
Thank you for reading…